Uwahh, I can finally use the internet freely!
Since my household reached 100% of our data usage for last month, I wasn't able to use the computer for two days.

On the other hand, yesterday I went to Pacific Mall with Sarah.. and .. they opened a Holika Holika! A real holika holika store ahhh. I also saw many Lioele and Tony Moly products. I'm so poor though, so I couldn't afford anything.. minus bubble tea.

I also saw a cute pair of glasses and I wanted them, but somehow everything at Pacific, in the clothing category is ridiculously overpriced. Especially the fakes... why is everything so expensive if it is made in China?! Waaaaahhh, I need a job. I keep complaining but I don't do much about it. Stop being lazy! Get up and do something!

I miss my baby ): We couldn't see each other today unfortunately, but I will see him after tomorrow and surely by the end of this week.

Speaking of tomorrow, I've invited Sanzi over to watch a few movies, since she's recently come back from her trip from Spain.

I'm having a pretty blah day, just went to the store and picked up some lettuce since we didn't have any. I'm not even wearing any make-up today. Just, ahhhh.

Doing a practice colouring thing..
I can't colour anything. It just looks so much worse when I colour ....
#sigh

Kristen Stewart cheats on Robert P... oh my. With a married man, the director of the movie " Snow White and the Huntsman ".. and then releases a statement saying

"I'm deeply sorry for the hurt and embarrassment I've caused to those close to me and everyone this has affected. This momentary indiscretion has jeopardized the most important thing in my life, the person I love and respect the most, Rob. I love him, I love him, I'm so sorry."

Wait, wait a minute. You LOVE him? Let me just say that I don't believe that this should be given any more thought than a man cheating on his wife, or a boyfriend cheating on his girlfriend. Although, however both Robert and Kristen are celebrities, this has been totally blown out of the water because of all of the millions of twilight fans (a.k.a little tween girls ) thought that their favorite characters Bella and Edward, after falling in love with each other in real life would copulate and make little vampire/human babies and live happily every after. It is however, a choice one makes when becoming famous that their personal lives will be invaded and scrutinized by the many people all around the world... 

Let me say one thing, cheating sickens me.

Let us start off with the man, Rupert Sanders. First of all, he is married to a very beautiful woman and has children with her. This is just totally and completely WRONG. First of all , you promised to love and to hold only your wife and to not give your heart or body to any other woman. Maybe it should have said " Excluding Kristen Stewart " in your marriage vows because clearly you have made a huuge mistake. Your children will be affected by this for their whole life, not to mention that you are pretty famous yourself and have been having an affair with Kristen Stewart, another high profile celebrity. I just can't believe a man would do this to his family. 

Let us not forget about Kristen, who had a seemingly very wonderful relationship with Robert. Then releases a statement, saying that she loves Robert. That, I think is silly. If you love someone, why would you hurt them, why would you do things with another man. If you loved him truly and thought about your actions you would have never cheated on him and told him you were in love with another man.

I don't like cheating. I really dislike cheating. I do believe that if you are going to cheat you should break up and then go do whatever you want. However, that being said, in some situations it is very hard to just get up and leave, especially if you have children. However, when you have children, you can't be thinking of only your needs. You need to think about the lives of your children as well...

Honestly, I just hope people realize how cheating affects people and how bad it is. I'm getting pretty fired up over this issue because I really dislike cheaters, and I personally wouldn't give cheaters a second chance. You have to be wise and realize what you have, not throw it away momentarily and then want it back. The people you cheated on, they are human. They have feelings and they are crushed. 

Maybe I have no right to comment on the decisions of Kristen or anything but speaking of cheating in general, I really wish people would think before cheating and realize it is a permanent and life altering decision for you and the other person in the relationship.

I'm thankful I have a wonderful and caring man who agrees with me that cheating is horrible and would never do anything to intentionally cause me pain <3

Happy 8 Months to me and my boyfriend!


Yaaay! * throws confetti *. It's been eight months already? It only feels like two hahaah! Being with my boyfriend is so easy it's like breathing. We get along really well, and I love him so much. So, yes, out 8 month celebration is really tomorrow, but it's pretty close to tomorrow, and it never hurt to be early so, I'm writing this post now! I'd really like to say a lot to my boyfriend, like how much I love him and how amazing he is and how happy he makes me feel and everything. I don't really know if I can describe it well enough though..

 I don't think loving someone is easy to describe in words. You can get close but, love is one of those feelings that no matter how much you can try to explain, feeling love is the only way to really understand it. I'm a very lucky girl in the sense that I experienced this feeling and continue to experience this feeling everyday. And let me tell you, it's better than what everyone claims it to be. One of the main reasons why is because the person whom I love and who is loving me is absolutely flawless and amazing and ticklish and cute and has a smile brighter that flash blindness and makes me melt and feel like gold from head to toe.

I think if I was an ice sculpture I'd melt just from being in a 100m radius of my boyfriend. But then again I wouldn't want to be an ice sculpture because they don't have a heart, are really cold and usually are not in the shape of women but like men or seemingly artistic geometric shapes.

I digress,

I'm a very lucky girl. Some people complain about not getting all that they want, they complain they don't own a flat screen TV or a laptop or Halo 3 or whatnot, but I'd trade anything for my boyfriend. Take all my electronics and material things away from me and I wouldn't flinch. A flat screen TV can't love you and can't provide you warmth on a cold winter night. ( Don't try cuddling with your flat screen television everyone ). Sure a television can entertain you but a television can't bring you soup when you're sick and a dress can't hold you. I'm not saying that these things can't make you happy, but it's the temporary kind of happiness.

After a while you think " I need a new dress to make me feel pretty because it's not working for me anymore ". When you have someone there that is committed and faithful and kind and generous, good looking and cute, respectful and kind, anything else pales in comparison.

Nothing feels quite the same as being held by another human being that would give up everything for you.


I wouldn't give up this feeling for anything in the world.

I'm dating one of the best men out there, I really am. Why someone would choose me, kind of plain, ordinary somewhat boring and talkative to no end, I have no idea. I'm not complaining though. I'm really glad he loves me the way I am, even though I exceed the talking speed of a chipmunk on helium haha. If you can love someone despite their very obvious flaws ( I have a big nose, I'm not exactly thin, I have glasses, I cry too much, get emotional at times , etc ) and be able to accept them no matter what, you are amazing. ( The definition of my boyfriend - amazing ).

I know I tend to sound like one of the madly in love girls that can't stop talking about her boyfriend but you know what ? I am that girl. I'm not ashamed to admit that and I'd scream it out from the rooftops if I wouldn't get arrested for doing so.

Anyways, I always manage to slip off course when writing these blog posts, but basically, Honey, I love you so much, and happy 8 months together! To many many many many more! ( infinite! Like that korean group you like, see I remembered :3! ).

 ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤  ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Don't remind me of the horrible human being I am. I'm the worst person alive on this earth right now. I am possibly the stupidest of the whole female species.

If any of you are really bored, you guys should check out http://cleverbot.com/! If any of you have am Iphone and know the chatting robot simsimi, it's the same basic concept. You can type anything, and the robot will reply.

I miss my boyfriend so I've been yelling at it " I miss Justin! " and it keeps saying " Justin who? Justin time for what? ".

You can also use simsimi online as well at http://www.simsimi.com/talk.htm.

Wow, I must be super bored to be chatting with a robot, but I've just heard of Cleverbot and wanted to see how funny it was.

On another note,

I like how the suns are asian too hahahaha. This made me laugh so much because it reminded me of a video I watched with baby.

I'll edit this later (:

Have I ever mentioned that I have the most amazing and bravest boyfriend out there? I don't care what anyone says, he is the best man on earth and no one can or will ever replace him or his love. You know when someone loves you when they're willing to hold your hand and go through hard and stressful times with you and still be able to hold you and tell you it will be okay.

No matter what happens, I'll always be here.

No matter what we decide, I want to know that I never regret anything, and that I'm the happiest woman I was able to meet my soulmate and am able to have you love me back as well.

You're amazing. Never forget that.

Today was amazing. Explanation not needed.

I hate for being yelled at for calling something what it is.
Why lie about something when you know you're right.

[EDIT]
I'm super late but Qiu Qiu is engaged! I really love Budget Barbie, althought I don't love all that she buys, I think she is a very nice girl and I hope she continues to film BB and I hope she has an amazing wedding!I wonder if Shu An is engaged? I know XX is married though.


On the other hand, Qiu Qiu also got heart shaped engagement ring!
Somehow I feel kind of sorry for men because they have to buy engagement rings.. So expensive. Although I really think men should put thought into it, price doesn't matter, I think thought counts more than price! Maybe I'm very easygoing and easy to please. I do have expensive taste, but even receiving something small and inexpensive or handmade makes me happy because there's thought behind it!~

So nice right? Price is only $1,775. Not so bad, but I've seen some that are $20,000! Holy, thats even more than a car! I'm actually stuck between having an expensive engagement ring or getting a brand new car.

Car: can take you places. con must buy gas. can be very nice car for $20,000 dollars. Look very nice driving in expensive car with boyfriend. 

Ring: no need to buy gas... ? con easily lost or stolen.

Sorry about all the wedding posts haaha. Everyone's getting married! I want to go to weddings too! I remember asking my korean friend Angie if she liked weddings, and all of sudden she perked up and said yes yes! And I curiously asked why, and she said " There is so much free food!! ". We think so alike it's scary.

I'd probably be super ghetto at the wedding and if the food is very good will put some in my purse to take home ahahhaa.

No I'm joking it would leak all over my dress and it wouldn't be very unlady like, so I'd bring tupperware containers hahahha. Don't judge me okay, it's free! ( jokes, jokes, but I would eat my fill at the wedding and have no regrets for the night even if I gain 5lbs more because wedding food is pretty good and free!)

Paris Hilton's engagement ring is the second most expensive engagement ring. $4.7 million dollars... and I don't quite like it. I do like big diamonds but.. who want's a brick on their finger. It would be super devastating if you lost this too... buy a house instead, or clothes, or donate to charity! Cannot do anything with a ring so big...

Conclusion: Extreme dislike of celebrities that have not contributed anything to society. Like Kim Kardashian. What in the world did she do to become famous anyways!!?

Sistar, you men stealers.. holy.

If I had a body like that ohohohohooh. Hyorin vocals are so good too. Somehow, I keep watching this video despite my jealousy over their bodies and dance moves because the song is actually rather catchy. I found a nice red dress too Hyorin okay?? -3- I actually probably own around 2 red things. But I do admit that I like red dresses ~

On the other hand, received some money from my dad today! I promise I won't go out and spend it, I promise I'll keep it because I need to buy something. 

わたしはかいものがすき。あたらしいくつしたはかいたいｗwww.

I woke up at 7:00am today but then decided to ignore my alarm and continue to sleep because I was so lazy to get out of bed...

No one is home again today.. so I'll probably finish some artwork and then when people get home go out and hand my resume to a couple of places. I'll edit this later when I come back. 

[EDIT] I'm browsing tumblr and reblogging things again... I'm such a girl...

I love you so much. I love you more than I love anything. I love you so much my heart wants to jump out of my chest and tell you how much it loves you. People don't understand love until they've experienced it first hand, but no one will ever be able to understand my love for you. Don't give up on your dreams. No matter how hard it might get, I'll still be here no matter what. I'll protect you from everything you fear. I won't let anyone hurt you. I'll stand beside you and shield you. You don't have to worry about anything, because I'll be here to take your worries away from you. I'll take all your pain, your loss, your insecurity and show you love, happiness and confidence.  I'll be the sun that dries up your tears and the sunscreen that protects you from the burns. I'll shine brightly upon you every day, and I'll make the rain go away. I might not be the prettiest, nicest or best girl out there, but I know that I'm the one girl that loves you unconditionally. Your happiness means to me more than food and water mean to a starving thirst stricken man. To you, these may be just words, but to me these are my feelings. I'm not good at expressing myself sometimes, but this feeling is one that takes hold of me every day that I live and breathe on this earth. And when I stop breathing and my body reunites with the earth under our feet, I will have no regrets for this life which I have lived because I've loved the best man on the face of the earth, and in the entire galaxy. I can't imagine a life not waking up to you. I can't imagine a life not laughing with you. I can't imagine a life without you. You're my heart and my soul and my existence. Even if I was born again, I'd come into this world loving you and only you. I know we're young, and I know there's so much for us to experience. But I wouldn't be happy experiencing life with any other man but you. You don't give yourself enough credit sometimes. There isn't any other man like you in this universe, and there will never be another one like you. This is why I'm ridiculously happy to be the only woman loving you like this. I'm loving the only you there will ever be in this world. Don't you ever forget how special you are, okay? Never put yourself down. No matter how low you sink, I'll never fail to raise you higher than before. I may not be perfect, but I will do my best to please you and make sure you never forget to laugh. Even though tears may stream down my face, it's because my heart can't find the ways to express it's love for you, because words can't possibly explain this feeling that takes over me everytime I see you walking towards me. I want to run into your arms and feel your warmth against me. I want to hold onto your hand and never let it go.  I want to be your warm blanket in the cold winter nights. No matter how much you push me away, know I'll always be holding onto you no matter what. Don't ever forget me. When I'm old and senile, I want to be there smiling back at your silly jokes. No matter how old this heart gets, it won't ever forget your love. I'll love you always baby. I won't leave your side. No matter what hardships may come, no matter what problems may arise in the future, I'll be there to help you face them. Don't let anyone else into your heart but me.

I love you so much Justin. I'll always love you and only you.

Was on Youtube and saw some cute proposals! All of you should watch these (: I was sobbing even thought it wasn't me getting proposed to! They're all adorable (: Congrats to all the cute couples who became husband and wife after these~

In case you guys didn't know, the japanese word for marriage is " kekkon " or ” けっこん”, and the korean word for marriage is " gyeolhon " or " 결혼 ".

In japanese, the way to ask someone's hand in marriage is "結婚してください。” read as " kekkon shite kudasai "
In korean it is " 결혼해주겠니?"  or " kyul hon hae joo get ni ".


So, enough of my blabbering, here are the videos!

Is it funny that I know the girl in the above video is wearing a Liz Lisa flower parka thing -3- I will purchase that one day. I browse the online catalogue I'm starting to be able to tell what is and what is not Liz Lisa...

The song in the second video is amazing.

brb crying my eyes off
I love love.

I can't even.. I'm envious of all of your looks. Love how Hyorin is like wtf you talking about sister?... Her face is like... wait a minute ahhaha.

Watching korean dramas is so unhealthy for me -3- I just end up comparing myself tot he female main character gaaaahhh why are you all plastic dolls... I'm just so average.

Oh well (: My baby loves my...average-ness. Had such a bad morning to start off today since I couldn't fall asleep last night, and I woke up and browsed some tumblrs and one of them was a really scary korean girl who blogged pictures of models and who said she eats 500 calories.. the problem was she was so pretty..

But really vulgar and she smoked and yeah.

I don't know why that made me feel so insecure, but I'm all better now! Today's going to be a really boring day for me since I won't be seeing baby. On the other hand, I think I've found a desk that I like and some nice bed sheets so I hope I can get those by the end of the week or something.

It's another odd day for me...

Went out today and four men hollered at me.
Please guys keep it in your pants.
Especially when you're married and I'm not interested and will never be.

You just make me feel so uncomfortable you know. I'm not a piece of meat for you to stare at. I'm a breathing human being not something for you to oogle at. I mean, why are there prostitutes... ( I'm not encouraging or condoning cheating but I mean, please stop harassing women on the streets..).

One guy honked at me and almost ran into another car. That's right. Keep your eyes on the road you...

I started laughing at his stupidity when I realized I wouldn't want anyone to die, just rapists and murderers.

I'm so serious... I wasn't even wearing anything too provocative. Just some black stretch shorts, a sweater and sunglasses. Honestly, sometimes old men can be so desperate. Don't get me wrong, but I just hate when guys try to holler at you from a moving car telling you you look good or something.

1. I don't need your opinion or approval of my self image
2. I'm not and won't ever be interested

I have a very wonderful loving supportive man that beats all of you and is much cuter and loves me for who I am and not for my looks,( which I don't have a lot of anyways, but meh). Unlike you, I have a man which I find attractive and which I will never cheat on and I won't look at other men because he knows how to please and make me happy so.. unlike you who is probably not etting enough or something...

Anyways. Please stop yelling at women on the streets. We don't need your compliments -3-

[ YESTERDAY'S POST]
Went to the dollarstore today and saw some old uncle buying panties -3-... and they weren't the granny kind too.. they were black with see through stripes and were really stringy and bad looking... I can just imagine him coming home to his wife and

Uncle: Honey, I bought you something * sly smile *
Wife: Oh dear! Is it a ring? a bracelet? a diamond necklace?
Uncle: No, it is much better!
Wife: A new car?! ~ * excited *
Uncle: No I buy you new underwear. You think I rich? Here , was very expensive, take care of it okay. Or else I will never buy you underwears again. Very nice. You can wear it tonight. Don't mind the strings hanging from it and the stain on the left while coming home I dropped my coffee on the seat and had to clean it up. Still nice, huh.
Wife: .................... I left my knif- I mean cheese grater in the kitchen brb

There are just some things you need to pay a little more for.. bras, underwear.. you know.

Other than that, I have a good idea for baby's 8 month present. I put quite a bit of thought into this.. I don't know if it'll turn out okay. It's a girl gift idea too.. only because I like cute things so maybe he won't like it. I still have to go out and buy the materials for it too~

I'm so happy right now I could burst. I even ate around 11 peach gummies which have that artifical peach taste but I don't care because I needed some kind of sugar.

As for that nagging question everyone's been having about XX, lately rumours have been that the diet pill she took to lose so much weight is Duromine, an appetite suppressant. She previously said it wasn't available in Singapore and she got it overseas..

Duromine, also known as Phentermine and is 

approved as an appetite suppressant to help reduce weight in obese patients when used short-term and combined with exercise, diet, and behavioral modification. It is typically prescribed for individuals who are at increased medical risk because of their weight and works by helping to release certain chemicals in the brain that control appetite. 

I don't know, the side effects don't sound pleasant at all and include..

More commonCardiovascularPalpitation, tachycardia, elevation of blood pressure.
Central Nervous SystemOverstimulation, restlessness, dizziness, insomnia, euphoria, dysphoria, tremor, headache.
GastrointestinalDryness of the mouth, unpleasant taste, diarrhea, constipation, other gastrointestinal disturbances.
AllergicUrticaria, changes in libido.
Less common

Convulsions (seizures) Fever Hallucinations Hostility with urge to attack Irregular blood pressure Lightheadedness or fainting Periods of mania followed by period of depression Tremors, trembling or shaking

Overactive reflexes Panic Restlessness Severe nausea, vomiting or diarrhea Stomach cramps Weakness Constipation Primary pulmonary hypertension Regurgitant cardiac valvular disease

Excuse me... " Hostility with urge to attack " and " periods of mania followed by depression ", not to mention the less common which  include tachycardia and tremor...

The things we girls do to lose weight... China already has had many problems with killer diet pills because many girls were taking pills that had bad side effects or were not " legit " pills... I'm not saying these are the pills she uses, but it is a possibility. I sure hope not.

She has gotten really tiny though, Xiaxue, watching her video where she stands side by side with Mike and the household video too.. She looks sickly.

XX your fats looked ok -3-

So relevant today...

I hate you uterus.

I've never hated a body part as much.

There's a first time for everything huh...

Speaking of babies, I turned on the TV and am watching, in horror right now, A Baby Story on TLC. I just want to change the channel but the remote fell under my bed and I can't find it. This woman is screaming her head off..

My head hurts now. Stop having babies on TV. No one wants to see that but your families, so record it yourselves.. At least don't show the actual procedure.. I don't know... I think a child's birth is private , like what'll you tell your children in the future?

Honey we filmed you naked and everything because we didn't have money to pay for my shoe addiction, I mean your diapers and so a lot of your friends/classmates/future collegues might see this on television!

Not that I don't think giving birth isn't amazing, I just don't want to see it in HD on my flat screen television...

I don't own the above picture, but I was browsing through tumblr one day and thought it to be really relevant and funny.

I have no comments.. lmfao. They had to name it some really masculine name like "ichiban" but the colour really works on his skin tone. He looks like a deranged clown that escaped from an asylum on some deserted Japanese island ( maybe the one Korean and Japan are always fighting over ) and now he's been offered a job in marketing because of his ability to speak japanese... complete with the totally incorrect kanji, and possily non existant too, this ad makes you want to buy this.

[EDIT] Just woke up the grumpy bear. I feel so bad ahh. He probably didn't sleep enough last night and I called him this morning waking him up because he's supposed to come over at 12 and it is currently 11:07... I feel hooorrible. Wah I am a bad woman ;A;

Today's picture:)

Just got the results of my AP English Exam, and according to the paper from Princeton I got a overall score of 4. Pretty good, considering I was freaking out during the exam and thought I just wrote a load of bullshit -3-

I really wanted a 5.. but a 4 is okay too. I still got half the credit, so I'm happy. The next half comes with the AP Literature exam next year.. bleurgh.

Woohoo, celebratory sushi date tomorrow with baby! But we're making the sushi, so that'll be even better!

I finally finished my resume... Let me tell you, my vocabulary has gone down a lot from when I used to constantly read books and fanfictions, and now that I usually read magazines my vocabulary has diminished significantly..

I don't know, reading doesn't captivate me as much any more. It never really did... I just read for the sake of saying that I was reading, but never fully grasping the material I read.

Mindless reading... is there such a thing?

In other news, I called the Romanian store, and they said they aren't hiring... but I gave my number to the man on the phone because apparently someone will be leaving in two weeks. However I don't know if I'd enjoy spending my time slicing salami for angry romanian ladies..

Dece nu merge mai repede? Vreau 30000 grame de salam...

My family has just been so jakdsl today. I don't even know if it's them or me anymore. Maybe I'm the bad one. I just want to forget all the issues and cuddle with my boyfriend who understands and cherishes me and loves me.

Anyways, I'm off to the mall to try on a new pair of glasses. Maybe after I'll convince my dad to go to Walmart so I can get a new sketchbook. Which reminds me, I found 3 of my old sketchbooks...

Those things should not see the light of day. Holy... I never knew my drawings were so bad. I mean I knew they weren't great but...

#end.

Today's picture:)

Woke up at 8:30 AM today..
I think my brain is an alarm clock.

Stays up until 3AM, has nowhere to go tomorrow.
Brain: Lets me sleep until 1PM

Stays up until 3AM, has to meet people tomorrow
Brain: Lets me sleep until 6AM

Thankfully that part of my brain works fine! As for the part that handles mathematics, I don't think it receives enough oxygen or something because I am super slow at math, including adding, subtracting, multiplying, dividin- basically all of math.

Went job hunting today! First time I ever had to walk in to a place and ask if they are hiring. I hate this, because when they say no, it's super awkward and all..

* Walks into Korean Restaurant *
Me: Excuse me, are you hiring?
Lady: Ah?
Me: Hiring, you know, job?
Lady: Ahhhh * looks into my asian like eyes but realizes it is a deception and that I am not asian nor korean * no no, sorry.
Me: Ah, okay, thank you very much!

Gaah I wanted to yell, I know Japanese! It is a Japanese and Korean restaurant you know! Why you will only hire koreans? It's not like I'm preparing the food, so why does it matter if I am asian or not? It's like going to a Japanese restaurant owned by Chinese people -3- I don't care if the lady bringing me food is white or asian or indian or whatever.

My friend works in a Greek Restaurant and she is asian...

I just want some free sushi ;A;
Don't get me wrong I like Korean Ahjummas.. especially the one me and baby saw today at the Korean supermarket who smiled at us while we were buying taiyaki! Such nice people ahhh.

Possible Job Opportunities

Romanian Store- have to call the owner tomorrow to see if they are still hiring. Best part of the job is that they don't request a resume as long as you speak romanian and english. 10 minute walk from my home. Hopefully an okay salary.

Cafe Michi - Japanese dessert cafe near my house. Closed today, will ask about job opportunities tomorrow.

Food Basics- Needs resume and job application to be filled in. 20 minutes away from house. Seems like a rather boring job, but apparently the pay is good.

Pizza Nova- Left my number with the man at the counter, said he would give to the manager to see if there were any positions left. Will become fat because of constant pizza consumption.

Chuck-E-Cheese - Also 20 minutes away from my home. Baby said to try for this because he wants to play the games there with me ahahha. Staff seems friendly. However another girl was filling in an application when I was there, must drop off resume there.

Beauty Salon - Around 10 minutes from home. Good to work there because I can purchase materials with a discount. Never know when you need afro wax. No I'm joking haha, but they sell nailpolishes and extensions and hair products. Must drop off resume.

Winners- 20 minutes away from house. Good because they sell a variety of things, and getting a job there would mean discounts on beauty items and designer handbags~ Must drop off resume.

Will also go to Fairview and flood the mall with job applications until I get a call.

Other than the fact of being tired, I spent an amazing day with baby at the park in Korea Town! We also ended up eating sushi and taiyaki and then spending time together on a park bench while watching two dogs play. Baby doesn't want to have a dog, but I want to get a dog with him! Or maybe a bunny (:

And rent an apartament for university with him, the rent will be so much cheaper and it means we can get a one bedroom and not have to worry about noisy and gross flatmates... Plus we could wake up to each other in the morning!~

My new television (: Allowing me to watch high quality youtube videos and korean dramas with my other half in the comfort of my own room. The image on the screen was a ad for the TLC show " Hoarders " which I don't watch because I get grossed out easily.

You can see that I'm really tanned.. how in the world do I rid myself of this tan.. My makeup doesn't match my skin tone anymore! I'm waiting to see my boyfriend again tomorrow ahhh, when you're away from the person you love you just want to be together every day but, I know that's impossible because of the distance between out homes and family etc.

I can still dream right? ㅇㅂㅇ

NU ABO-f(x) , I really like this song. I quite like f(x), mostly because of Luna and Sulli.. I don't care much for Krystal, or the other members, but their songs are really catchy ahha.

Yesterday my boyfriend and I were watching the video for Electric Shock, and I asked if he liked Krystal, and he said " She's okay. I still like Jessica better ". Jessica you man stealer... ㅜㅇ ㅜ

I'm super motivated to lose weight too, ever since one of my friends suggested we diet together. I always find that I do a lot better when I'm in a group of people versus just myself. I'm really sick of being all chubby and flabby and whatnot. I really want to look nice for my boyfriend, although he says I'm perfect. 

One thing I really hate about myself is that one day I'll be super fired up and the next day it'll be all like whatever. 

わるいですね。。。

Sometimes I think I don't have what it takes to be pretty but as long as I feel happy and as long as my boyfriend is happy then I'm happy too! 

But right now I'm not happy with how I look...

Bad diet causes a lot of problems, not including aesthetically but also internally. Eating a lot of greasy and fried foods leads to acne and oily skin, it also leads to an increase in body fat, and not in the correct places either... Somehow I wonder how all the korean celebrities manage to maintain their weight...

I honestly love food, wow. I sound fat. But food is delicious. It's human nature to overindulge and want more of what is good. In some places, that is totally fine, like when it comes to love. But when it comes to food, it's proven that eating less can increase your lifespan and it can also boost metabolism and your mood.

Mind you eating too little can cause you to be extremely tired, grumpy and unhappy. But I think it's important to find a good balance of eating good food and exercising. I really don't like exercising, probably because I can't play any sports, my hand eye co-ordination is horrible.

This is a pretty sensitive issue for me because I don't know what to do , diet or be happy with how I am, if that is even possible. 

I know my boyfriend think I'm beautiful no matter what, but he's just such a good man and I think he deserves a good woman. Not saying I'm not a good woman, but I can be better (:

 Lets work hard! -ㅈ -

Back from vacation! Ahhhh I had an awesome day yesterday just being with my boyfriend after a tiring flight. I hate flying.. It's not comfortable, I can't sleep on the airplane and there are children always crying on the airplane...

I swear, some kids just love to scream. It was pretty bad on the way there.. I love kids and I think they're adorable, but some kids are just unbearable. I can't hate on children though, since I think that the parents have a huge impact on the child's behaviour.

The mom of the two 3 year olds that were crying on the plane didn't do anything. she just said shh a couple of times and she kept giving her husband the children's unfinished food..

I'm so happy I'm home now! <3~
I'll write a longer post about my vacation soon~

Had another amazing day with my other half ~

Going away on vacation for a week , so I won't be updating because I won't have any internet.. I do however want to speak about VenusAngelic a little just because I saw that on prettyuglylittleliars someone posted a gif of her from a video of her cleaning the kitchen in a Japanese Phys Ed uniform while licking some white stuff off of her fingers and she was only 11-13 at that time.

First of all, the girl is so young! And it's a live nico nico broadcast with a lot of creepy old Japanese men watching her clean the kitchen in a red panty with black knee high socks with ponytails like... that's your child! You don't see any mother willingly allowing her daughter to prance around while being recorded for millions to see...

Not to mention that after this was recorded by a fan and uploaded to youtube she took it down on a copyright claim..

I really really hope she grows up to be okay.
She seems like a really nice girl, but I think she's being steered in the totally wrong direction by her mother, since she's so young too..

I miss him so much...

Honestly.. I can't see myself with any other man... ♥
I love you forever and ever baby.

Back from an amazing outing and cuddle session with my honey!
Baby and I and our very nice friend Jen went down to the korean area and walked around. We ended up in this korean clothing store, where, I found the cutest sailor girl type outfit but I couldn't wear it because it didn't fit in the chest area.

Major unhappineeeessss grrr. I mean, I don't exactly wish to be flat just, you know, I don't want two watermelons strapped to my chest.

Not to mention the fact that the lady at the cash wasn't even korean, she was chinese. And honestly they overprice everything in those stores.. although I really like the clothes, until I get a job I'm stuck just admiring and placing them back onto the rack -3-

しようがないの。。。

But I need to make a very nice resume !~

わたしはがんばります！～

I also need to make a note to myelf to look up a japanese facial cleanser brand which I saw at H-Mart。It was actually pretty cheap and it looked good. It was naive, I believe. So I'll take a look at some reviews.

Anyways, I want to share with you all some of my favorite beauty youtube channels! I'm usually on youtube browsing tutorials on makeup and hair and just health in general. I'll also list some of the ones that I don't particularily like and some reasons for why these channels don't make the cut.

BEAUTYQQ - She is just amazing and full of life and happiness. Her beauty tips are really useful and her makeup is fairly easy. She's also very good at explaining steps and adding humour to a video, and I really like her music choice. She's sincere and she makes videos from the heart. I can't wait to see her new videos everytime she posts one and I like to rewatch older ones when she doesn't!

MSZJACKIECHU- I watched one of her videos while looking for health tips on youtube and I really liked the fact that she is real and personable and just gives really good advice. She's not stuck up and she is really easy to relate to in terms of her life and her views on life.

LUVABLEVIET- I just really love watching her closet tours and her outfit videos. She also makes health videos but I sometimes find that her advice isn't that great or healthy. I really like her sense of style, although some of her outfits are a bit showy, but she has a very toned body which she's worked really hard for, so she deserves to show it off a little.

XIAXUE- I find her really funny and opinionated, and I like how although she is sponsored by some companies, she gives honest reviews about services and warms you when she does any kind of advertorial. She's really up front and doesn't mind answering tough question.

OISEAU88- I found her by accident while watching another korean guru's videos, and although I really like her, I find that as soon as she got sponsored most of her videos revolve around that. I was really conflicted about adding her to this list, but I really think she is a good person overall.

BUBZBEAUTY - Not my favorite, but much better than Michelle Phan in terms of relatability. I find she's really heartfelt and understanding, and her video topics are really interesting. I don't know why but there is just something about her that really prevents me from fully liking her, probably her grammar sometimes.

ILIKEWEYLIE- She's really funny and spunky. She makes videos about things other people wouldn't talk about and give great advice. She's really nice and doesn't mind answering questions. I really like her and I think that people relate to her very well.

Not so loveable..

VENUSANGELIC- Although I admire her for learning so many different languages, I think that her voice is quite fake and her explanations for why she does things and what she chooses to use in terms of ingredients in some of her videos are vague. In one video she mentions keeping a curling iron in your hair for 2 minutes or so... which is crazy! Her bleached blonde hair makes her look really old and makes her hair look really damaged and thin. I didn't really mind her when she was just starting out, but at this point I think her videos follow the same pattern. Put on heavy makeup, apply glittery things, pose, done.

KOTAKOTI- Her appearance changes throughout her tutorials, and her tutorials are fairly basic to begin with. In one video, she curls her hair, and places a portion of it in a side ponytail. There is also a video on how to make ponytails. Rather basic, and also boring because she never moves too much in her videos. Minus that, I do like her outfit videos, although I think she poses in them for a little too long. I like her fashion sense.

JUICYSTAR07- I find her voice to be suuper fast and I think that she goes off topic quite a lot. Although I like some of her videos, like her cooking video, I find that sometimes she comes off as being fake and kind of ditzy. I don't really bother to watch her videos anymore because I find that most of the time they are very long and she goes off topic and talks about other things for half of the video. I also find that she's extremely colourful and just.. not my style.

So, these are some of my favorite and not so favorite youtube beauty channels ! (:

Back from my vacation, urgh I really dislike long car trips. I'll edit this later when I don't feel like the world is spinning ~ >.<