ariirina

Whenever he smiles, my heart lights up like a lightbulb.
Today was amazing. I got to be in his arms for over two hours, and I couldn't stop smiling. The way he smiles and holds me close, I feel like I'm melting.
The way he looks at me is just,... amazing. The look on his face today was breathtaking. Only I can get that expression to come out. I feel like I've rigged the lottery and only I keep winning. My lucky number is always 25!~

I still remember the day he asked me out ahhaa, I was totally oblivious to the major hints he dropped, and I wanted to go downtown. It was snowing and cold but he came along anyways, of course I didn't object because whenever we were together I always had so much fun. He is really easy to talk to and really understanding too! (:We walked around downtown until we found a starbucks. I was freezing and so was he, so we decided to grab something to drink. He ordered a frappuccino which I thought was really silly because it was freezing outside and I remember him telling me that he liked cold drinks in the winter. I got a hot chocolate, and we bought two red velvet whoopie pie things. We sat down in a kind or park behind the starbucks and just talked about the picture on one of the buildings of a snake ( oh geez ahhaha). Who in the world decided to put a picture of a snake on a building.I was really cold so he wrapped his scarf around my hands and I got really close to him. I always tell him I love the way he smells, and it's true. Every time I smell his cologne it brings me back in time to when we first met and how I loved his scent back then too. I still remember asking him who he liked and grabbing his arm really tightly wishing he would say me. And then when he did I was shocked and happy and just, ridiculously red ahhaha. We walked to the subway station because it was really late and I remember holding onto his arm~.When he asked me out in the subway I was like, yes yes yes yes I want to be yours. I remember our first kiss too. I was about to get on the bus and I was holding him really close. My bus came and I just looked up into his face, I wanted to kiss him so badly and he ended up kissing me really gently. Once I got kissed I wanted more kissies! We ended up kissing for another twenty minutes ahahah. It's not my fault his lips were so soft and amazing. I've been through so many experiences with him. Everything has been with him.


I'm so comfortable around him. The way he talks, smiles and takes forever to shop are all adorable. Whenever I say something he finds cute he giggles and wants to pinch my cheeks. He always makes sure to take me home even though he lives really far away. Everything he does for me is adorable and amazing!~ (◕‿◕❀) 

He has a wonderful five year old sister who is so adorable and so tiny and I just want to play with her all day. She is totally my bff. I have to remember to buy us friendship bracelets~ Or I'll bring over some beads next time so we can make them for each other (: I love the way she calls him "kuya" and how she has the most adorable voice ! I'm going to work in the summer so this christmas I can get her a really cure gift. I've already started making a list of what to get his family...ahh. I'm still unsure about his brother, but I'm sure that I will find something nice! (:

Did I mention that he has the nicest mother ever? She's so kind to me and always smiles and I just want to yell out " you have such an amazing son!!". For mother's day I was going to get her a card and write  " Happy Mother's Day! I hope you have an amazing mother's day, God has blessed you with three amazing, smart, talented and beautiful children", but I thought maybe it was too cheesy and old sounding. I wasn't sure. She's always so kind to me, even though I'm really shy around her because she is so nice and I'm not sure how to act, I don't want to make any kind of mistake.

The same thing with Jen, my baby's best friend's sister. They're really close, and even though I blew up at my baby for calling her when he was upset and not me, she's so nice and everything. I feel a little like the wicked witch of the west because she's been nothing but kind to me. She's really nice and really pretty and really funny too! I want to make sure I don't make any mistakes because I know how important their family is to my baby. Sometimes he smiles at her with one of those megawatt smiles and I think to myself, " Can I make him smile like she can? ". And then I laugh to myself and say, no way. I can't make him smile like she can. I'm not her. I can make his smile brighter than anyone else.

I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Today while laying in his arms I thought to myself what I would do if he ever left. I couldn't come up with anything because to me he is the most important human being on the planet. If he left and never looked back my heart would shatter into a million pieces and I wouldn't be able to carry on. It doesn't hit you how much someone means to you and once you think of life without them and don't see a life after them.

My eyes are starting to get really heavy and all I want to do is sleep. But I'm so happy and full of joy that I can't possibly seem to let myself fall asleep. My baby went to bed rather early today. I think today really tired him out, so I hope he is sleeping peacefully.

I'm so happy right now, I can burst ♥
I found someone who understands me and wants only me.
Someone who would never let me go for anything.
Someone who lends me a shoulder to cry on.
Who kisses all my booboo's and holds my hand everywhere.
Who holds me close when I tremble and when I feel weak.

I won't let any woman take it away from me.  I won't let any man take it away from me. Don't you dare try. I might be nice, but my niceness is only to a certain extent.

Look like a flower, yet be the serpent underneath,  that's me when someone is trying to take my husband away.

I love him so much...