Ahhh, it's really scary being awake at night and hearing all these scary noises ;A; especially when there is a TV show about murder playing.
Hnn, I'm in bed right now wishing my boyfriend was here. Gaaaaaah. I'm strong enough to defend myself of course but I don't have good aim so if anyone tried to hit me and I tried to it back I'd probably miss. I'll hope to avoid any kind of confrontation unless necessary. I'm so worried about when he goes out at night though. Especially late at night. Strange people try to speak to him and he's almost gotten mugged before, so whenever he's out late I always worry so much because I'm so far away and can't protect him.
I do like the night time, but I feel like it isn't exactly safe. The seedy people come out at night. Whenever he goes out at night I always hope he stays safe and doesn't speak to anyone or pay any attention to anyone.
If something happened to him and I wasn't there to prevent it or to save him it would kill me.
わたしはつよいです。。もしかしたら。。
Whenever he doesn't text me for long periods of time or goes places without telling me I worry still. It's silly for me because I feel so stupid, he doesn't have to report to me whatever he does. He has his own life too.. yet I still can't help but worry. Ahh, what a stupid woman I can be sometimes.
ばか女です。
I'm writing this in order to calm myself down because he's been gone for two hours or so and I'm kind of worried but, I know he will be all right (: He might have fallen asleep since he's so sleep deprived now-a-days. I feel like it's my fault sometimes because before I was an insomniac and would stay up until three or four and he would stay up too, yet now I can barely make it past twelve or one before I totally crash, and he's the one who can't sleep. I want to be there for him like he's there for me.
I actually have a really good seven month surprise for him hehehe. ~
わたしはがんばります！ I can't wait to be able to give it to him!
I want to make our summer really special hehehe~
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