Know how much I love you beautiful girl
Like a picture of a child to me
And frozen before a shadow
There’s nothing I can do
With a shaky voice
With dry lips
(Come a step closer to me and tenderly whisper)
The surrounding firelight dances
I always dream of you

Baby good night
Baby good night
Baby good night
Baby good night

One of the best days ever! Seeing someone you love after an absence is the best feeling ever, just being able to be beside them and hold them once again ahhh! I also love all of my classes for day one. I love the teachers, and I think it's going to be fun but educative, which I appreciate.

I love how we're writing journals for Writers Craft! We can talk about anything, and that makes me happy because I can truly write my best when I'm writing about a subject or a topic that interests me and I want to be able to tell the story to the reader in a way that they are able to feel some kind of emotion or be moved by my writing.

Period three looks like a joke, it's Philosophy, but only because the class is a weird mix of kids that don't care about anything and do drugs and don't study (not saying they're bad people, they just make their own choices, which are bad), and small groups of kids that are in AP and try really hard at everything..

We will see how it'll turn out.

Period four is actually really fun, It might be the professor's voice but he sounds absolutely gay and fabulous and just makes jokes all the time and everything. I'm glad I'm sitting next to some very nice people this year!

Although I don't quite like one girl sitting behind me in period three, I'll try to be as open minded as possible, maybe she's just a really nice girl, right?

As for my diet, today I thought to myself, wow I didn't eat much.. I should eat more.
Then I looked back and realized I ate quite a bit.

Morning:
Toast and Oatmeal

Lunch: A cream cheese sandwich, some pretzels, a pastry crisp

Dinner: Rice with beef and pork, cucumbers, Tim Horton's Iced Capp, pretzels and watermelon.

Maybe It's just me but somehow I feel really full after all of that....


I didn't drink enough water today though.. I barely got through 500ml of water, usually I drink up to 2L...

Oh well, will improve tomorrow! Tomorrow's goal is to replace the toast at breakfast with watermelon, because bread isn't that good for you. Oh and drink more water!


Baby said I lost weight. I feel really accomplished! I'm not hungry and I eat when I do get hungry, I just try to eat things that are filling and healthy and I try not to eat junk foods!(:

This song, this song... The new YG trainee is so pretty! Jennie Kim is her name, and I love her hair...wah. She's part of a new group YG's planning to put out and I'm excited.. she did a rap video that reminded me of CL.

Every single song GD comes out with I can't stop listening to, no matter how long it's been! (:

Passing through downtown Toronto reminds me I live in a beautiful city. They have these ferris wheels down by the CN tower that light up at night. I want to go on one late at night in winter while its snowing.

Today is just one of those days where I realize how large the world is. I'm always thinking too much.

Taking a warm bath when I get home. Just soaking for hours, because I can. Hope everyone is having an amazing day! I'm finally home.

I am beyond happy right now, a little message can make me soo happy!! Ahh, baby thank you for texting me. I was really worried about you, the only regret I have is not being home to respond since we went to the beach again today. I got a semi-tan. It's not that big of a tan, but my mom turned really brown.

I feel so at ease now.I feel so peaceful and just my worries have flown away and I'm on cloud 9. No, cloud 10. Because 10 is better than 9. Because it is.

You know that feeling when you're so happy and you just want to squeeze that person so hard and just stay there forever holding them and crying tears of joy? That's me right now. But maybe not crying yet, I need to see baby first, I'm only allowed to cry on him.

You know when you've found that person you want to spend forever with and you're really happy and everything makes you laugh and you want to do everything for that person? That's also me right now. I've said this a lot before, but I want to marry him.

I know, I know, I'm seventeen blah blah. I want to marry him and it's final and that's it and we will get married and have a lot of children and we will be a really cute family! No matter what happens, we will be super cute together forever always! (I sounded really blonde there..but it's true!). This love I have for him is just, bigger than anything!

He makes me happier than anyone. He makes me work hard and smile and laugh and I love him so much. That's my man. So hands off everybody, okay? Because if you fall in love with him, you can't have him because he's mine and loves only me so tough luck!~


I really need to complain to WestGate though their WiFi is really weird. If I'm in the living room it's works beautifully and when I'm in my room it disconnects like there is no tomorrow! I wish there was free WiFi everywhere! In the subways, in the streets, in cars, in buses, on the beach everywhere!

It's pretty late and I'm still not sleeping, because my phone decided it would connect to the WiFi and I saw baby's message and I was jumping up and down and sitting in the bathroom smiling at my phone like an idiot because I love this man so much and can't wait to see him!

I've been sleeping with his sweater on everyday(: Wearing his necklace, and the bear he gave me and staring at pictures of him on my phone <3 Being apart from him is really hard.. but when I have fun, the day goes by quickly and I'll be able to see him sooner! Our time here ends on the 31st and my parents want to go to another hotel and another beach.. I'm not too thrilled about it, but we are going to the beach again tomorrow..

I can't wait to see you again.
I love you more than anything <3

Missing my boyfriend so much.. writing this while wearing his sweater and cuddling the bear he gave me. I haven't spoken to him in two whole days, and I'm worried about him and I miss him like crazy. I'm hoping time goes by a little quick so that I can see him soon and ask about his trip.

To pass time, I've been shopping and watching dramas, or should I say rewatching. I still find the Japanese hana kimi better than the Korean for some reason. It just makes me laugh and bawl and just so many emotions haha.

It's been helping with my loneliness, but I still miss him so much. Missing someone is just not a good feeling at all.. It makes you lonely, but at the same time, it makes seeing that person again exciting,, because you're anticipating it and can't wait and want to run and jump and just hug the other person to death. (Okay, that's an expression, don't make anyone die..).


I've been taking out my phone just to stare at the background and go through my picture gallery. We've come so far. It's like my life was a puzzle and it was missing a piece and he just completes me like no one can or ever will be able to.

When I'm with him, he makes me feel like the only woman in the world.

He makes me laugh and be silly and he makes me appreciate every little thing(:

Ahhhh, It makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside when I talk about my "taisetsuna hito". It's pretty late, but I can't seem to fall asleep. Although sleeping is nice. I really enjoy sleep. Anything can happen in dreams.

I can see my baby in my dreams. I can marry him and force him to buy a rabbit or a dog. I can fly or I can become an animal or just, dreams are amazing, sometimes scary and sometimes weird. But dreaming of him makes me feel really happy. Although I can't see him yet, Although I can't speak to him today, I know somewhere, he's thinking and dreaming of me too.

And, you know, he's looking up at the same sky as I am.
It's a comforting feeling, somehow~

I'm suuper late on this because I've been lazy but I am so obsessed with GD's new song, One of a Kind. I really like G-Dragon, I think right after Gee the second Korean song I heard was his "Heartbreaker". I like how you can pick out his voice on any track it's so unique.

Rosana drew me a picture of him for my 16th birthday... I was super obsessed with Heartbreaker and I wouldn't shut up, I think I memorized the lyrics...

Here you are (: !~ Yessssiir I'm one of a kiiiinnddddd

To The Beautiful You vs Hana Kimi

So, I've recently started watching the korean version of Hana Kimi, and let me tell you, it's quite different from the original. Remeber in Hana Kimi when Mizuki is running the marathon, she gets injured by someone stepping on her foot with cleats and her foot starts bleeding, but she runs anyways? Well, in Hana Kimi, Mizuki doesn't win the race and Sano rushes in to carry her to the doctor's office, Nakatsu helps too. Not to mention there's a whole backstory with his grandma being ill.

In To The Beautiful You, Sulli ( already forgot her character's name, uhh...) actually wins the race, and she doesn't injure her foot in the same way (she sprains it). Also, in TTBY I don't see Dorm 3 being as funny. Dorm 3, Oscaaaar!

Is it funny that in both dramas I wanted the lead to end up with Nakatsu/Lee Hyunwoo?? Sorry Minho.. but.. I just don't like your role. I didn't like Oguri Shun's role either.. I just don't like the whole Sano-type. Another big difference is that, in the Japanese version, Mizuki's brother is played by a japanese actor who speaks his lines in japanese.. where as Sulli's brother.. is some tall American guy?!

I found it totally unrealistic when he speaks in English ( and korean subs appear ) and Sulli answers in Korean. It's a little weird to talk like that to your brother.. is she adopted or half american??? She did say some English lines but... so...korean...accent. One thing that did surprise me is that the American guy did speak Korean! He said quite a few lines. But his acting was just...oh gosh... so false.

Another thing, when Sulli got kidnapped by that hyung and Minho went to save her.. they were in a van (a rapist van, Sulli, it looked like a rapist van! And hyung kept touching you too! RAPE ALERT!) and Minho runs out of the house and he's like (his thought)

Let me just take a bicycle and catch up to a motorized vehicle and let me not think to call hyung's cellphone but have Sulli call me and tell me details of where she is and I'll know exactly where that is even though I don't live in this area. Sounds good Minho. Go.

My favorite character so far is Eun Gyeol! He's just super happy and funny and I can't deal with Minho's bad personality and gloom. Not to mention that Korea's sweetheart girl that thinks she's Minho's girlfriend that I swear will end up with Eun Gyeol although he liked Sulli and thinks he's gay.


I swear if Eun Gyeol ends up with miss bratty I will call the produced and tell them SHIBAL KEZEKI YA. No, No, No. Cannot.

I must admit though, the Korean actors are much better dressed compared to Hana Kimi's cast (I really really dislike their uniforms in Hana Kimi...). But I'm not too sure about Sulli's acting either. I just have an f(x) bias and like Sulli because she's cuter than a button.

Best scenes: Eun Gyeol imagining him and Sulli getting married, having a child and the child asking which daddy gave birth to him.

Worst Acting: "Oppa" finds out Sulli is pretending to be a guy at an all male school and gives her a long lecture about her future in english.

Look at that fancy bowl cut! xD It suits him though. I can't imagine Minho with that bowl cut..

An obligatory gif of Sulli and Eun Gyeol. Because he reminds me of GD. They're so adorable together!

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Haaaapppyyy 9 Months! <3

Hey baby! Happy nine months to us(: Aren't we just the most adorable couple ever? Although I'm the chinky one yet I'm not even asian, you said you liked my chinkiness so you can't change your mind now okay? You're stuck with four eyes here. I mean five eyes. I forgot the one on the back of my head, you know I'm not good at math anyways. I didn't use my fingers for that one okay?

Really, I didn't.....





You don't believe me doo yooooouuu. I'll show you one time okay? Then you can see I have mastered mathematics....yeah.

Nine months baby, I fall in love with you every day all over again. This feeling won't ever cease to be, so I will always love you and fall in love with you more and more! I'm so happy to have met my soulmate, someone who cares and listens and is understanding and kind and warm hearted and happy and handsome and has an adorable smile and the cutest laugh and a heart bigger than he knows he has <3 That's you my baby. Justin, that man is you, my soulmate! I love you soo much Justin(:

You're leaving tomorrow morning, and I don't know what I'll do without any contact with you... I really hate not being able to make sure you're okay. I hope you have lots of fun visiting your family though! Say hi to Joey for me! Take this time to relax before school begins and don't work too hard okay? This is your vacation! No vacuuming! Please be safe too, and take care baby.

I can't wait to jump into your arms once I get back and just ahhh breathe in. I'm wearing your sweater as I'm writing this. It still smells like you. It smells like home. It eases the pain of being without you just a little bit. Knowing that I can fall asleep because of this comforting scent and feeling of being enveloped by you.

I love you so much Justin.

-Andreea <3

Went to see Total Recall with the amazing boyfriend today! The movie was surprisingly better than I though! ( At first I thought it was going to be some kind of matrix remake ), but I really did enjoy it and it was quite suspenseful and action filled, so I was really happy! The only complaint I have is that the arm rest didn't move up and down and I wanted to cuddle with my honey and the stupid arm rest was in the way.

I'm going to write a letter to Rob Ford to stop spending money on football and hotdogs and hamburgers and food and to make all the arm rests at theatres go up and down because it's civil rights! ( That doesn't make sense but I think you can manage anything if you argue it's civil rights ).  Some people don't even buy drink and sometimes the arm rest is really uncomfortable and I think this is a serious issue and it needs to be addressed preferably before me and the other half visit another movie theatre.

Also got baby the earring he's been wanting for a bit, and he looks so handsome with it on! We have a matching black one but I'm going to wear mine tomorrow because I'm afraid if I wear it to bed i'll end up losing it.

Have also made up mind that I will lose 16lbs in two months... mathematically... around 4 weeks in one month, if lose 2lbs in one week, 2x4= 8lb and two months is 2x8=16lbs and I would be amazingly much lighter than I am now..

My poor fats are going bye bye. I hope some one in need of my fats recieves them. I'll ship it off to a third world country for starving children to have, since they need it so much more than I do.


Have been productive recently! I am suuper happy and just really really bubbly right now.

Things I have learned today:

★ Baby doesn't like the ketchup popcorn flavoring
★ I don't particularly like it either
★ Melted butter tastes delicious
★ I like messing up baby's hair ( even though I knew this before )
★ Baby looks handsome with an earring

Had a weird phone call today from Mississauga on my cell phone.. I was making a grilled cheese tortilla wrap, which by the way was very delicious although the cheese tasted like rubber. I picked up, thinking it might be someone important, like a family member or something, and it turned out to be some Indian man who was looking for someone named Kanish.

He kept yelling at me " where is Kanish??" 

Let me just say, some people are so rude. Don't yell at random strangers on the phone okay? 

Stupid, did ever a white girl answer your Indian friend's phone? I don't think so, he lives in Mississauga which is like brown city. I was getting really annoyed because he sounded so commanding and he he just knew nothing so I told him there was no Kanish and hung up. He was lucky I didn't burn my delicious tortilla or else I would have been really upset. I wish people would be just a little more polite.

Don't even get me started on telemarketers, a couple of days ago

At 10:00AM phone rings
Me: Hello?
X: Hello, this is Billy Joe from the Toronto Star! We are having a promotion where you can get the paper daily but only have to pay for the weekend delivery! It's an amazing deal, blah blah, when can we get this deal started for you?
Me: I'm not interested
X: You only have to pay for Sunday and Saturday delivery though, and the rest is free! When can we get this great deal started for you?
Me: ..... I don't read the paper...
X: This is a great chance to start miss! It's a great opportunity! When can we get this amazing deal started for you?
Me: *annoyed* never *hangs up*

Honestly, I wish they would just realize that no matter how much they egg you on you will not buy their stupid papers or switch your insurance company or phone provider or donate money to saving wild chimpanzees or whatnot.

Other than that I had a rather uneventful day, I ate really well today though! I also did dishes, so I wasn't totally useless today. I need to vacuum again though, this dark hardwood is really hard to maintain. 

I'm having one of those blah weeks where I don't care about doing anything I just sit around and watch television or read or draw or go on tumblr... Can't wait for tomorrow though! Have a date with the baby after not seeing him for a couple of days!!!

Wearing baby's necklace:) it reminds me of him so much and keeps me safe.

That feeling when your life is absolutely 100% complete and you feel full of love and happiness. My life everyday. I might not be as beautiful, as skinny or as nice as some other girls, but I am becoming the best person that I can be!

My goals for the remainder of this week/next week

vacuum
wash dishes everyday
take a picture of all of my food
eat healthy
exercise
apply moisturizer every day
apply less make-up 
begin reading one book
smile more
be appreciative
dust



I'll be happy to complete at least 3 of these goals~ I want to give my face a break from the make-up for just a little bit. I want to be able to accomplish a lot of things this week! I want to spend time with my other half. I want to read more. I want to continue to learn new things!  I want to grow my hair out and dye it back to blonde!

どうして？。。。
この女。。。－３－　みてください。
Here she has little white spots on her cheeks like an anime character.... oh Dakota Rose.

 It looks like she's bald since it looks as if she's missing a whole patch of hair.

 This last picture is taken from prettyuglylittleliars. You can see her lip changes shape here.

Had a pretty bad day food wise. But just because I've had a rough two days doesn't mean I'm going to give up! Sarahs mom made some waffles and vanilla sauce and we ate them with strawberries. And the chocolate
And the chips. My body will kill me for overdosing on junk food. I already feel heavier and gross right now.

Sorry body. I won't do it again.
Pick yourself up and keep going. I lost 4lbs. 20 more lbs and I will be very healthy and very happy:)

You only have one body. I'm not only doing this for myself, but for my wonderful honey, because this isn't only my body, its his too:)

Korean music videos.. two words.

Gangnam style.

Heeeeeeeyyy sexy laaadyy. O-o-o-oooppa gangnam style.

Hyuna is in this video too. That boy in the video must be super famous right now haha.

I hate how people are bickering in the comments because some people thought it was Japanese. One. Its a Korean music video. This has nothing to do with japan. Stop bashing Korea and Korea stop bashing japan ...jeez. not everything weird has to be Japanese ! ( although I love kyary ) . Why can't we all just be friends! Korea is cool. Japan is cool. The end. :3

I have to admit though the song is ridiculously catchy , I've played it twice already.

I have this weird artificial grape flavor in my mouth right now...but I have t eaten anything that even remotely tastes like grapes..

Yesterday was amazing as is every day I spend with my amazing other half. :) I love you so much.

Am now sad because I have completed inuyasha.... and... I'm not sure if I'm happy about kikyo. I thought she was a bitch but I suppose she had reason to be a bitch. She does way more in terms of fighting than kagome in does in five episodes. Wah rumiko Takahashi is one woman who made my childhood! First time I watched the show I loved sango.. I still do:)

Also watched an amazing documentary again called super size me. Oh jeez. Its so gross about McDonalds. But its so addicting. Although having it maybe once a month is okay... just...(-3-)

Its raining outside right now. Am probably going to have some lunch. Honey is at a birthday party today, so I hope he's having lots of fun! Going to go grab some lunch:3

Had an amazing day today with the boyfriend. We went out for a picnic and had a lot of fun, although it felt like I was an ice cream cone melting in the sun. I realize I haven't updated my blog much, honestly, my life is going really well, and although I'd like to write about my day every day, some days I just sit inside and do nothing...

しようがないの。。

Today was perfect. Every day I spend with people I love is perfect no matter what! Sometimes, I get really down, and I have to slap myself (not literally) and realize that I have amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend and an amazing family.

No matter how many arguments you may get into, or how much you've hurt each other, your friends and beloved ones will always love you no matter what.

People argue that the human heart is weak, that it succumbs to corruption, greed and a insatiable thirst for power, but the human heart, the human emotions, especially love, are what make humans able to be compassionate and understand the pain of others.


Sometimes, I'm spoiled and I want to spend every second of my day with my boyfriend, at those times, when I'm feeling down and lonely, I play Paul Mariat's " Toccata ". It reminds me that no matter what kind of loneliness or sadness I have, I can always count on running into his arms at the end of the day.

I really have a wonderful life, a wonderful man, a wonderful family, and wonderful friends

Uwahh, I can finally use the internet freely!
Since my household reached 100% of our data usage for last month, I wasn't able to use the computer for two days.

On the other hand, yesterday I went to Pacific Mall with Sarah.. and .. they opened a Holika Holika! A real holika holika store ahhh. I also saw many Lioele and Tony Moly products. I'm so poor though, so I couldn't afford anything.. minus bubble tea.

I also saw a cute pair of glasses and I wanted them, but somehow everything at Pacific, in the clothing category is ridiculously overpriced. Especially the fakes... why is everything so expensive if it is made in China?! Waaaaahhh, I need a job. I keep complaining but I don't do much about it. Stop being lazy! Get up and do something!

I miss my baby ): We couldn't see each other today unfortunately, but I will see him after tomorrow and surely by the end of this week.

Speaking of tomorrow, I've invited Sanzi over to watch a few movies, since she's recently come back from her trip from Spain.

I'm having a pretty blah day, just went to the store and picked up some lettuce since we didn't have any. I'm not even wearing any make-up today. Just, ahhhh.

Doing a practice colouring thing..
I can't colour anything. It just looks so much worse when I colour ....
#sigh

Kristen Stewart cheats on Robert P... oh my. With a married man, the director of the movie " Snow White and the Huntsman ".. and then releases a statement saying

"I'm deeply sorry for the hurt and embarrassment I've caused to those close to me and everyone this has affected. This momentary indiscretion has jeopardized the most important thing in my life, the person I love and respect the most, Rob. I love him, I love him, I'm so sorry."

Wait, wait a minute. You LOVE him? Let me just say that I don't believe that this should be given any more thought than a man cheating on his wife, or a boyfriend cheating on his girlfriend. Although, however both Robert and Kristen are celebrities, this has been totally blown out of the water because of all of the millions of twilight fans (a.k.a little tween girls ) thought that their favorite characters Bella and Edward, after falling in love with each other in real life would copulate and make little vampire/human babies and live happily every after. It is however, a choice one makes when becoming famous that their personal lives will be invaded and scrutinized by the many people all around the world... 

Let me say one thing, cheating sickens me.

Let us start off with the man, Rupert Sanders. First of all, he is married to a very beautiful woman and has children with her. This is just totally and completely WRONG. First of all , you promised to love and to hold only your wife and to not give your heart or body to any other woman. Maybe it should have said " Excluding Kristen Stewart " in your marriage vows because clearly you have made a huuge mistake. Your children will be affected by this for their whole life, not to mention that you are pretty famous yourself and have been having an affair with Kristen Stewart, another high profile celebrity. I just can't believe a man would do this to his family. 

Let us not forget about Kristen, who had a seemingly very wonderful relationship with Robert. Then releases a statement, saying that she loves Robert. That, I think is silly. If you love someone, why would you hurt them, why would you do things with another man. If you loved him truly and thought about your actions you would have never cheated on him and told him you were in love with another man.

I don't like cheating. I really dislike cheating. I do believe that if you are going to cheat you should break up and then go do whatever you want. However, that being said, in some situations it is very hard to just get up and leave, especially if you have children. However, when you have children, you can't be thinking of only your needs. You need to think about the lives of your children as well...

Honestly, I just hope people realize how cheating affects people and how bad it is. I'm getting pretty fired up over this issue because I really dislike cheaters, and I personally wouldn't give cheaters a second chance. You have to be wise and realize what you have, not throw it away momentarily and then want it back. The people you cheated on, they are human. They have feelings and they are crushed. 

Maybe I have no right to comment on the decisions of Kristen or anything but speaking of cheating in general, I really wish people would think before cheating and realize it is a permanent and life altering decision for you and the other person in the relationship.

I'm thankful I have a wonderful and caring man who agrees with me that cheating is horrible and would never do anything to intentionally cause me pain <3

Happy 8 Months to me and my boyfriend!


Yaaay! * throws confetti *. It's been eight months already? It only feels like two hahaah! Being with my boyfriend is so easy it's like breathing. We get along really well, and I love him so much. So, yes, out 8 month celebration is really tomorrow, but it's pretty close to tomorrow, and it never hurt to be early so, I'm writing this post now! I'd really like to say a lot to my boyfriend, like how much I love him and how amazing he is and how happy he makes me feel and everything. I don't really know if I can describe it well enough though..

 I don't think loving someone is easy to describe in words. You can get close but, love is one of those feelings that no matter how much you can try to explain, feeling love is the only way to really understand it. I'm a very lucky girl in the sense that I experienced this feeling and continue to experience this feeling everyday. And let me tell you, it's better than what everyone claims it to be. One of the main reasons why is because the person whom I love and who is loving me is absolutely flawless and amazing and ticklish and cute and has a smile brighter that flash blindness and makes me melt and feel like gold from head to toe.

I think if I was an ice sculpture I'd melt just from being in a 100m radius of my boyfriend. But then again I wouldn't want to be an ice sculpture because they don't have a heart, are really cold and usually are not in the shape of women but like men or seemingly artistic geometric shapes.

I digress,

I'm a very lucky girl. Some people complain about not getting all that they want, they complain they don't own a flat screen TV or a laptop or Halo 3 or whatnot, but I'd trade anything for my boyfriend. Take all my electronics and material things away from me and I wouldn't flinch. A flat screen TV can't love you and can't provide you warmth on a cold winter night. ( Don't try cuddling with your flat screen television everyone ). Sure a television can entertain you but a television can't bring you soup when you're sick and a dress can't hold you. I'm not saying that these things can't make you happy, but it's the temporary kind of happiness.

After a while you think " I need a new dress to make me feel pretty because it's not working for me anymore ". When you have someone there that is committed and faithful and kind and generous, good looking and cute, respectful and kind, anything else pales in comparison.

Nothing feels quite the same as being held by another human being that would give up everything for you.


I wouldn't give up this feeling for anything in the world.

I'm dating one of the best men out there, I really am. Why someone would choose me, kind of plain, ordinary somewhat boring and talkative to no end, I have no idea. I'm not complaining though. I'm really glad he loves me the way I am, even though I exceed the talking speed of a chipmunk on helium haha. If you can love someone despite their very obvious flaws ( I have a big nose, I'm not exactly thin, I have glasses, I cry too much, get emotional at times , etc ) and be able to accept them no matter what, you are amazing. ( The definition of my boyfriend - amazing ).

I know I tend to sound like one of the madly in love girls that can't stop talking about her boyfriend but you know what ? I am that girl. I'm not ashamed to admit that and I'd scream it out from the rooftops if I wouldn't get arrested for doing so.

Anyways, I always manage to slip off course when writing these blog posts, but basically, Honey, I love you so much, and happy 8 months together! To many many many many more! ( infinite! Like that korean group you like, see I remembered :3! ).

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Don't remind me of the horrible human being I am. I'm the worst person alive on this earth right now. I am possibly the stupidest of the whole female species.

If any of you are really bored, you guys should check out http://cleverbot.com/! If any of you have am Iphone and know the chatting robot simsimi, it's the same basic concept. You can type anything, and the robot will reply.

I miss my boyfriend so I've been yelling at it " I miss Justin! " and it keeps saying " Justin who? Justin time for what? ".

You can also use simsimi online as well at http://www.simsimi.com/talk.htm.

Wow, I must be super bored to be chatting with a robot, but I've just heard of Cleverbot and wanted to see how funny it was.

On another note,

I like how the suns are asian too hahahaha. This made me laugh so much because it reminded me of a video I watched with baby.

I'll edit this later (:

Have I ever mentioned that I have the most amazing and bravest boyfriend out there? I don't care what anyone says, he is the best man on earth and no one can or will ever replace him or his love. You know when someone loves you when they're willing to hold your hand and go through hard and stressful times with you and still be able to hold you and tell you it will be okay.

No matter what happens, I'll always be here.

No matter what we decide, I want to know that I never regret anything, and that I'm the happiest woman I was able to meet my soulmate and am able to have you love me back as well.

You're amazing. Never forget that.

Today was amazing. Explanation not needed.

I hate for being yelled at for calling something what it is.
Why lie about something when you know you're right.

[EDIT]
I'm super late but Qiu Qiu is engaged! I really love Budget Barbie, althought I don't love all that she buys, I think she is a very nice girl and I hope she continues to film BB and I hope she has an amazing wedding!I wonder if Shu An is engaged? I know XX is married though.


On the other hand, Qiu Qiu also got heart shaped engagement ring!
Somehow I feel kind of sorry for men because they have to buy engagement rings.. So expensive. Although I really think men should put thought into it, price doesn't matter, I think thought counts more than price! Maybe I'm very easygoing and easy to please. I do have expensive taste, but even receiving something small and inexpensive or handmade makes me happy because there's thought behind it!~

So nice right? Price is only $1,775. Not so bad, but I've seen some that are $20,000! Holy, thats even more than a car! I'm actually stuck between having an expensive engagement ring or getting a brand new car.

Car: can take you places. con must buy gas. can be very nice car for $20,000 dollars. Look very nice driving in expensive car with boyfriend. 

Ring: no need to buy gas... ? con easily lost or stolen.

Sorry about all the wedding posts haaha. Everyone's getting married! I want to go to weddings too! I remember asking my korean friend Angie if she liked weddings, and all of sudden she perked up and said yes yes! And I curiously asked why, and she said " There is so much free food!! ". We think so alike it's scary.

I'd probably be super ghetto at the wedding and if the food is very good will put some in my purse to take home ahahhaa.

No I'm joking it would leak all over my dress and it wouldn't be very unlady like, so I'd bring tupperware containers hahahha. Don't judge me okay, it's free! ( jokes, jokes, but I would eat my fill at the wedding and have no regrets for the night even if I gain 5lbs more because wedding food is pretty good and free!)

Paris Hilton's engagement ring is the second most expensive engagement ring. $4.7 million dollars... and I don't quite like it. I do like big diamonds but.. who want's a brick on their finger. It would be super devastating if you lost this too... buy a house instead, or clothes, or donate to charity! Cannot do anything with a ring so big...

Conclusion: Extreme dislike of celebrities that have not contributed anything to society. Like Kim Kardashian. What in the world did she do to become famous anyways!!?

Sistar, you men stealers.. holy.

If I had a body like that ohohohohooh. Hyorin vocals are so good too. Somehow, I keep watching this video despite my jealousy over their bodies and dance moves because the song is actually rather catchy. I found a nice red dress too Hyorin okay?? -3- I actually probably own around 2 red things. But I do admit that I like red dresses ~

On the other hand, received some money from my dad today! I promise I won't go out and spend it, I promise I'll keep it because I need to buy something. 

わたしはかいものがすき。あたらしいくつしたはかいたいｗwww.

I woke up at 7:00am today but then decided to ignore my alarm and continue to sleep because I was so lazy to get out of bed...

No one is home again today.. so I'll probably finish some artwork and then when people get home go out and hand my resume to a couple of places. I'll edit this later when I come back. 

[EDIT] I'm browsing tumblr and reblogging things again... I'm such a girl...

I love you so much. I love you more than I love anything. I love you so much my heart wants to jump out of my chest and tell you how much it loves you. People don't understand love until they've experienced it first hand, but no one will ever be able to understand my love for you. Don't give up on your dreams. No matter how hard it might get, I'll still be here no matter what. I'll protect you from everything you fear. I won't let anyone hurt you. I'll stand beside you and shield you. You don't have to worry about anything, because I'll be here to take your worries away from you. I'll take all your pain, your loss, your insecurity and show you love, happiness and confidence.  I'll be the sun that dries up your tears and the sunscreen that protects you from the burns. I'll shine brightly upon you every day, and I'll make the rain go away. I might not be the prettiest, nicest or best girl out there, but I know that I'm the one girl that loves you unconditionally. Your happiness means to me more than food and water mean to a starving thirst stricken man. To you, these may be just words, but to me these are my feelings. I'm not good at expressing myself sometimes, but this feeling is one that takes hold of me every day that I live and breathe on this earth. And when I stop breathing and my body reunites with the earth under our feet, I will have no regrets for this life which I have lived because I've loved the best man on the face of the earth, and in the entire galaxy. I can't imagine a life not waking up to you. I can't imagine a life not laughing with you. I can't imagine a life without you. You're my heart and my soul and my existence. Even if I was born again, I'd come into this world loving you and only you. I know we're young, and I know there's so much for us to experience. But I wouldn't be happy experiencing life with any other man but you. You don't give yourself enough credit sometimes. There isn't any other man like you in this universe, and there will never be another one like you. This is why I'm ridiculously happy to be the only woman loving you like this. I'm loving the only you there will ever be in this world. Don't you ever forget how special you are, okay? Never put yourself down. No matter how low you sink, I'll never fail to raise you higher than before. I may not be perfect, but I will do my best to please you and make sure you never forget to laugh. Even though tears may stream down my face, it's because my heart can't find the ways to express it's love for you, because words can't possibly explain this feeling that takes over me everytime I see you walking towards me. I want to run into your arms and feel your warmth against me. I want to hold onto your hand and never let it go.  I want to be your warm blanket in the cold winter nights. No matter how much you push me away, know I'll always be holding onto you no matter what. Don't ever forget me. When I'm old and senile, I want to be there smiling back at your silly jokes. No matter how old this heart gets, it won't ever forget your love. I'll love you always baby. I won't leave your side. No matter what hardships may come, no matter what problems may arise in the future, I'll be there to help you face them. Don't let anyone else into your heart but me.

I love you so much Justin. I'll always love you and only you.

Was on Youtube and saw some cute proposals! All of you should watch these (: I was sobbing even thought it wasn't me getting proposed to! They're all adorable (: Congrats to all the cute couples who became husband and wife after these~

In case you guys didn't know, the japanese word for marriage is " kekkon " or ” けっこん”, and the korean word for marriage is " gyeolhon " or " 결혼 ".

In japanese, the way to ask someone's hand in marriage is "結婚してください。” read as " kekkon shite kudasai "
In korean it is " 결혼해주겠니?"  or " kyul hon hae joo get ni ".


So, enough of my blabbering, here are the videos!

Is it funny that I know the girl in the above video is wearing a Liz Lisa flower parka thing -3- I will purchase that one day. I browse the online catalogue I'm starting to be able to tell what is and what is not Liz Lisa...

The song in the second video is amazing.

brb crying my eyes off
I love love.

I can't even.. I'm envious of all of your looks. Love how Hyorin is like wtf you talking about sister?... Her face is like... wait a minute ahhaha.

Watching korean dramas is so unhealthy for me -3- I just end up comparing myself tot he female main character gaaaahhh why are you all plastic dolls... I'm just so average.

Oh well (: My baby loves my...average-ness. Had such a bad morning to start off today since I couldn't fall asleep last night, and I woke up and browsed some tumblrs and one of them was a really scary korean girl who blogged pictures of models and who said she eats 500 calories.. the problem was she was so pretty..

But really vulgar and she smoked and yeah.

I don't know why that made me feel so insecure, but I'm all better now! Today's going to be a really boring day for me since I won't be seeing baby. On the other hand, I think I've found a desk that I like and some nice bed sheets so I hope I can get those by the end of the week or something.

It's another odd day for me...

Went out today and four men hollered at me.
Please guys keep it in your pants.
Especially when you're married and I'm not interested and will never be.

You just make me feel so uncomfortable you know. I'm not a piece of meat for you to stare at. I'm a breathing human being not something for you to oogle at. I mean, why are there prostitutes... ( I'm not encouraging or condoning cheating but I mean, please stop harassing women on the streets..).

One guy honked at me and almost ran into another car. That's right. Keep your eyes on the road you...

I started laughing at his stupidity when I realized I wouldn't want anyone to die, just rapists and murderers.

I'm so serious... I wasn't even wearing anything too provocative. Just some black stretch shorts, a sweater and sunglasses. Honestly, sometimes old men can be so desperate. Don't get me wrong, but I just hate when guys try to holler at you from a moving car telling you you look good or something.

1. I don't need your opinion or approval of my self image
2. I'm not and won't ever be interested

I have a very wonderful loving supportive man that beats all of you and is much cuter and loves me for who I am and not for my looks,( which I don't have a lot of anyways, but meh). Unlike you, I have a man which I find attractive and which I will never cheat on and I won't look at other men because he knows how to please and make me happy so.. unlike you who is probably not etting enough or something...

Anyways. Please stop yelling at women on the streets. We don't need your compliments -3-

[ YESTERDAY'S POST]
Went to the dollarstore today and saw some old uncle buying panties -3-... and they weren't the granny kind too.. they were black with see through stripes and were really stringy and bad looking... I can just imagine him coming home to his wife and

Uncle: Honey, I bought you something * sly smile *
Wife: Oh dear! Is it a ring? a bracelet? a diamond necklace?
Uncle: No, it is much better!
Wife: A new car?! ~ * excited *
Uncle: No I buy you new underwear. You think I rich? Here , was very expensive, take care of it okay. Or else I will never buy you underwears again. Very nice. You can wear it tonight. Don't mind the strings hanging from it and the stain on the left while coming home I dropped my coffee on the seat and had to clean it up. Still nice, huh.
Wife: .................... I left my knif- I mean cheese grater in the kitchen brb

There are just some things you need to pay a little more for.. bras, underwear.. you know.

Other than that, I have a good idea for baby's 8 month present. I put quite a bit of thought into this.. I don't know if it'll turn out okay. It's a girl gift idea too.. only because I like cute things so maybe he won't like it. I still have to go out and buy the materials for it too~

I'm so happy right now I could burst. I even ate around 11 peach gummies which have that artifical peach taste but I don't care because I needed some kind of sugar.

As for that nagging question everyone's been having about XX, lately rumours have been that the diet pill she took to lose so much weight is Duromine, an appetite suppressant. She previously said it wasn't available in Singapore and she got it overseas..

Duromine, also known as Phentermine and is 

approved as an appetite suppressant to help reduce weight in obese patients when used short-term and combined with exercise, diet, and behavioral modification. It is typically prescribed for individuals who are at increased medical risk because of their weight and works by helping to release certain chemicals in the brain that control appetite. 

I don't know, the side effects don't sound pleasant at all and include..

More commonCardiovascularPalpitation, tachycardia, elevation of blood pressure.
Central Nervous SystemOverstimulation, restlessness, dizziness, insomnia, euphoria, dysphoria, tremor, headache.
GastrointestinalDryness of the mouth, unpleasant taste, diarrhea, constipation, other gastrointestinal disturbances.
AllergicUrticaria, changes in libido.
Less common

Convulsions (seizures) Fever Hallucinations Hostility with urge to attack Irregular blood pressure Lightheadedness or fainting Periods of mania followed by period of depression Tremors, trembling or shaking

Overactive reflexes Panic Restlessness Severe nausea, vomiting or diarrhea Stomach cramps Weakness Constipation Primary pulmonary hypertension Regurgitant cardiac valvular disease

Excuse me... " Hostility with urge to attack " and " periods of mania followed by depression ", not to mention the less common which  include tachycardia and tremor...

The things we girls do to lose weight... China already has had many problems with killer diet pills because many girls were taking pills that had bad side effects or were not " legit " pills... I'm not saying these are the pills she uses, but it is a possibility. I sure hope not.

She has gotten really tiny though, Xiaxue, watching her video where she stands side by side with Mike and the household video too.. She looks sickly.

XX your fats looked ok -3-