Friday, June 8, 2012
Whenever he smiles, my heart lights up like a lightbulb.
Today was amazing. I got to be in his arms for over two hours, and I couldn't stop smiling. The way he smiles and holds me close, I feel like I'm melting.
The way he looks at me is just,... amazing. The look on his face today was breathtaking. Only I can get that expression to come out. I feel like I've rigged the lottery and only I keep winning. My lucky number is always 25!~
I still remember the day he asked me out ahhaa, I was totally oblivious to the major hints he dropped, and I wanted to go downtown. It was snowing and cold but he came along anyways, of course I didn't object because whenever we were together I always had so much fun. He is really easy to talk to and really understanding too! (:We walked around downtown until we found a starbucks. I was freezing and so was he, so we decided to grab something to drink. He ordered a frappuccino which I thought was really silly because it was freezing outside and I remember him telling me that he liked cold drinks in the winter. I got a hot chocolate, and we bought two red velvet whoopie pie things. We sat down in a kind or park behind the starbucks and just talked about the picture on one of the buildings of a snake ( oh geez ahhaha). Who in the world decided to put a picture of a snake on a building.I was really cold so he wrapped his scarf around my hands and I got really close to him. I always tell him I love the way he smells, and it's true. Every time I smell his cologne it brings me back in time to when we first met and how I loved his scent back then too. I still remember asking him who he liked and grabbing his arm really tightly wishing he would say me. And then when he did I was shocked and happy and just, ridiculously red ahhaha. We walked to the subway station because it was really late and I remember holding onto his arm~.When he asked me out in the subway I was like, yes yes yes yes I want to be yours. I remember our first kiss too. I was about to get on the bus and I was holding him really close. My bus came and I just looked up into his face, I wanted to kiss him so badly and he ended up kissing me really gently. Once I got kissed I wanted more kissies! We ended up kissing for another twenty minutes ahahah. It's not my fault his lips were so soft and amazing. I've been through so many experiences with him. Everything has been with him.
I'm so comfortable around him. The way he talks, smiles and takes forever to shop are all adorable. Whenever I say something he finds cute he giggles and wants to pinch my cheeks. He always makes sure to take me home even though he lives really far away. Everything he does for me is adorable and amazing!~ (◕‿◕❀)
He has a wonderful five year old sister who is so adorable and so tiny and I just want to play with her all day. She is totally my bff. I have to remember to buy us friendship bracelets~ Or I'll bring over some beads next time so we can make them for each other (: I love the way she calls him "kuya" and how she has the most adorable voice ! I'm going to work in the summer so this christmas I can get her a really cure gift. I've already started making a list of what to get his family...ahh. I'm still unsure about his brother, but I'm sure that I will find something nice! (:
Did I mention that he has the nicest mother ever? She's so kind to me and always smiles and I just want to yell out " you have such an amazing son!!". For mother's day I was going to get her a card and write " Happy Mother's Day! I hope you have an amazing mother's day, God has blessed you with three amazing, smart, talented and beautiful children", but I thought maybe it was too cheesy and old sounding. I wasn't sure. She's always so kind to me, even though I'm really shy around her because she is so nice and I'm not sure how to act, I don't want to make any kind of mistake.
The same thing with Jen, my baby's best friend's sister. They're really close, and even though I blew up at my baby for calling her when he was upset and not me, she's so nice and everything. I feel a little like the wicked witch of the west because she's been nothing but kind to me. She's really nice and really pretty and really funny too! I want to make sure I don't make any mistakes because I know how important their family is to my baby. Sometimes he smiles at her with one of those megawatt smiles and I think to myself, " Can I make him smile like she can? ". And then I laugh to myself and say, no way. I can't make him smile like she can. I'm not her. I can make his smile brighter than anyone else.
I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Today while laying in his arms I thought to myself what I would do if he ever left. I couldn't come up with anything because to me he is the most important human being on the planet. If he left and never looked back my heart would shatter into a million pieces and I wouldn't be able to carry on. It doesn't hit you how much someone means to you and once you think of life without them and don't see a life after them.
My eyes are starting to get really heavy and all I want to do is sleep. But I'm so happy and full of joy that I can't possibly seem to let myself fall asleep. My baby went to bed rather early today. I think today really tired him out, so I hope he is sleeping peacefully.
I'm so happy right now, I can burst ♥
I found someone who understands me and wants only me.
Someone who would never let me go for anything.
Someone who lends me a shoulder to cry on.
Who kisses all my booboo's and holds my hand everywhere.
Who holds me close when I tremble and when I feel weak.
I won't let any woman take it away from me. I won't let any man take it away from me. Don't you dare try. I might be nice, but my niceness is only to a certain extent.
Look like a flower, yet be the serpent underneath, that's me when someone is trying to take my husband away.
I love him so much...
Today was amazing. I got to be in his arms for over two hours, and I couldn't stop smiling. The way he smiles and holds me close, I feel like I'm melting.
The way he looks at me is just,... amazing. The look on his face today was breathtaking. Only I can get that expression to come out. I feel like I've rigged the lottery and only I keep winning. My lucky number is always 25!~
I still remember the day he asked me out ahhaa, I was totally oblivious to the major hints he dropped, and I wanted to go downtown. It was snowing and cold but he came along anyways, of course I didn't object because whenever we were together I always had so much fun. He is really easy to talk to and really understanding too! (:We walked around downtown until we found a starbucks. I was freezing and so was he, so we decided to grab something to drink. He ordered a frappuccino which I thought was really silly because it was freezing outside and I remember him telling me that he liked cold drinks in the winter. I got a hot chocolate, and we bought two red velvet whoopie pie things. We sat down in a kind or park behind the starbucks and just talked about the picture on one of the buildings of a snake ( oh geez ahhaha). Who in the world decided to put a picture of a snake on a building.I was really cold so he wrapped his scarf around my hands and I got really close to him. I always tell him I love the way he smells, and it's true. Every time I smell his cologne it brings me back in time to when we first met and how I loved his scent back then too. I still remember asking him who he liked and grabbing his arm really tightly wishing he would say me. And then when he did I was shocked and happy and just, ridiculously red ahhaha. We walked to the subway station because it was really late and I remember holding onto his arm~.When he asked me out in the subway I was like, yes yes yes yes I want to be yours. I remember our first kiss too. I was about to get on the bus and I was holding him really close. My bus came and I just looked up into his face, I wanted to kiss him so badly and he ended up kissing me really gently. Once I got kissed I wanted more kissies! We ended up kissing for another twenty minutes ahahah. It's not my fault his lips were so soft and amazing. I've been through so many experiences with him. Everything has been with him.
I'm so comfortable around him. The way he talks, smiles and takes forever to shop are all adorable. Whenever I say something he finds cute he giggles and wants to pinch my cheeks. He always makes sure to take me home even though he lives really far away. Everything he does for me is adorable and amazing!~ (◕‿◕❀)
He has a wonderful five year old sister who is so adorable and so tiny and I just want to play with her all day. She is totally my bff. I have to remember to buy us friendship bracelets~ Or I'll bring over some beads next time so we can make them for each other (: I love the way she calls him "kuya" and how she has the most adorable voice ! I'm going to work in the summer so this christmas I can get her a really cure gift. I've already started making a list of what to get his family...ahh. I'm still unsure about his brother, but I'm sure that I will find something nice! (:
Did I mention that he has the nicest mother ever? She's so kind to me and always smiles and I just want to yell out " you have such an amazing son!!". For mother's day I was going to get her a card and write " Happy Mother's Day! I hope you have an amazing mother's day, God has blessed you with three amazing, smart, talented and beautiful children", but I thought maybe it was too cheesy and old sounding. I wasn't sure. She's always so kind to me, even though I'm really shy around her because she is so nice and I'm not sure how to act, I don't want to make any kind of mistake.
The same thing with Jen, my baby's best friend's sister. They're really close, and even though I blew up at my baby for calling her when he was upset and not me, she's so nice and everything. I feel a little like the wicked witch of the west because she's been nothing but kind to me. She's really nice and really pretty and really funny too! I want to make sure I don't make any mistakes because I know how important their family is to my baby. Sometimes he smiles at her with one of those megawatt smiles and I think to myself, " Can I make him smile like she can? ". And then I laugh to myself and say, no way. I can't make him smile like she can. I'm not her. I can make his smile brighter than anyone else.
I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Today while laying in his arms I thought to myself what I would do if he ever left. I couldn't come up with anything because to me he is the most important human being on the planet. If he left and never looked back my heart would shatter into a million pieces and I wouldn't be able to carry on. It doesn't hit you how much someone means to you and once you think of life without them and don't see a life after them.
My eyes are starting to get really heavy and all I want to do is sleep. But I'm so happy and full of joy that I can't possibly seem to let myself fall asleep. My baby went to bed rather early today. I think today really tired him out, so I hope he is sleeping peacefully.
I'm so happy right now, I can burst ♥
I found someone who understands me and wants only me.
Someone who would never let me go for anything.
Someone who lends me a shoulder to cry on.
Who kisses all my booboo's and holds my hand everywhere.
Who holds me close when I tremble and when I feel weak.
I won't let any woman take it away from me. I won't let any man take it away from me. Don't you dare try. I might be nice, but my niceness is only to a certain extent.
Look like a flower, yet be the serpent underneath, that's me when someone is trying to take my husband away.
I love him so much...
1. Where were you 3 hours ago? - With my boyfriend cuddling on the blanket in the park while looking out at the blue sky ｡◕‿◕｡ .
2. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? - My pink blankie~
3. What are you wearing right now? - My boyfriend's hollister zip hoodie and reindeer pants .
4. What are the colours of your bedroom walls? - Light yellow, kind of beige? I didn't pick this colour.
5. Who is the last person you sent a message or comment /BBM? - My wonderful other half ❤.
6. What does your last text message say? - "Yeah but it's okay, I wont panic anymore (: "
7. Can You Taste The Difference Between Pepsi And Coke? - Yeees! I actually like coke because I grew up drinking more coke than pepsi.
8. Is your hair curly or straight? - It's straight ~ When I was younger my hair was really straight, but I tie it up after a shower so it won't tangle.
9. Which is the hardest thing you ever had to do? - Hmmm, I'm not too sure. Probably taking my math exam last year. Or yelling at my boyfriend...
10. Favorite 2 color combination? - Pink /white or turquoise/white , or yellow/white (;
11. What is your favorite accessory? - uhm, are shoes an accessory? I like watches and rings and necklaces.
11. What is your favorite accessory? - uhm, are shoes an accessory? I like watches and rings and necklaces.
12.Which current celebrity's style do you admire most? - n/a
13. What is your favorite fashion store/shop? - H & M, F21, Zara
14. When was the last time you drove out of town? - I don't drive but I am getting my G1 this summer and I will drive myself and my boyfriend out of town.
15. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? - The television~
16. What was the last thing you bought? - A brownie this morning for my boyfriend, I was worried he didn't have breakfast.
17. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? - My baby
18. Favorite Food? - Avocado sushi, teriyaki, beef jerky, uh... anything.
19. Biggest turn off? - Stalkers and perverts, and people that aren't kind to you.
20. What do you always have on you/wear? - My cellphone! I have so many important things in there like pictures etc.
21. What does your screen name mean/ how did you come up with it? - I'm not really sure. I thought Japanese people would have trouble pronouncing Andreea, so I asked them to call me Arina or Rina.
22. Favorite style of top/blouse? - I loooveee sheer blouses and v-necks.
23. Favourite tv show? - Criminal Minds, CSI, anything on TLC, History, Discovery, Space.
24. What is a favorite TV show from your childhood? - Sailor Moon and Pokemon. I used to watch these two religiously.
25. What does your dream bedroom look like? - Pink and white, large large bed with a lot of pillows, a large closet and large windows.~
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Beautiful
This man, in the picture up above, is beautiful. I don't just mean physically.This is going to be one of those super sappy blog posts, but I can't help myself. Before meeting this beautiful boy, I had no hope of someone loving me. Not truly. I used to think I was never good enough for anyone. I was always the second to get picked in everything. I always used to be compared to my better looking, smarter and more athletic best friend. I was used to being out second. I never thought it was possible to feel any other way, because no one has ever made me feel like I am good enough. No one, except for him. I can't explain how much I love him. He's amazing, beautiful, handsome, kind and sincere. We sometimes fight and argue, and sometimes we make mistakes and upset each other. But no matter how many times I cry, or how many times I apologize, I always end up in his comforting embrace with him whispering to me that he loves me and that he will never leave me. No one is perfect, and the magic of love is being able to love someone, faults and all. And I can say that I truly love him. No matter how many times he gets upset and refuses to speak to me, no matter how many times he undermines himself, I'll always be there to hold him in my arms in the end. Our relationship isn't perfect, because if we had a perfect relationship, it would be boring. We don't always agree, (especially on controversial topics like religion ahah), but the fact that we have different opinions opens us up to other ideas. We do agree however, on the important things. Every day I spend with him, I learn to love life more and more. I learn to appreciate life more and more.
Every day we spend together I get happier and happier. He is the first person I think about when I wake up and the last person I think about when I sleep. I don't even stop thinking about him when I fall asleep. I find myself wishing to be with him minutes after he's left me, wishing to kiss him and hold him more than the day before. I'm selfish, and I like to keep him to myself. I'm not a good woman, I'm not kind when it comes to him. I don't like other people being with him. I don't like when girls text his phone. However, I trust him completely. I don't trust the other women. I know for a fact that women can get crazy when it comes to getting what they want. He makes me laugh and giggle at every sentence, and he holds me tight when I'm scared or unsure. He cares about my wellbeing more than anyone has, ever.
He thinks I'm beautiful even when I'm having the worst day. He loves me even though I am not the skinniest and most beautiful woman. He loves me for who I am and not for my body and not for his own gain. He is beautiful. There is no other definition of the word. I love him so much. I love the way his eyes sparkle when he gets excited, love the way he stays up with me when I have work to do, love the way he tells me I'm adorable and beautiful. He has a heart of gold. He cares about me so much that sometimes it hurts him.
It's crazy to some people how close we are. I can tell him anything, and he can tell me anything. Although I'm not too good with expressing myself, and I don't like getting angry or upset, he still loves me and encourages me to speak my mind. I don't like getting upset because one, he really doesn't do things that upset me and two , because I don't think being angry over something is going to solve it. I'm usually quiet,and I don't speak up too much, but even though I'm not good at these things, I'm so happy he still loves me regardless. Even though I'm flawed, really flawed, and even though I misunderstand things a lot and cry a lot, I'm really happy someone is willing to accept me like this.
Every day I cannot wait to be in his arms, listening to his soothing voice and feeling his warmth. I'm so lucky to have an amazing boyfriend and best friend all in one. This is more than I could have ever asked for. I'm so thankful for having him. I'm so thankful he is mine.
He is beautiful.
This post may not make sense, it's probably a mumble jumble of thoughts without any kind of flow, but there are so many things I could say about this man and how amazing he is and how he has changed my life. I can't properly explain anything, because I can't seem to find the correct words.
Baby, If you ever read this, I love you so much. I love you for who you are. No matter what baby I will always love you. You are beautiful, strong and handsome. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I love you baby.
Monday, June 4, 2012
Toronto Public Transit
Forewarning most people that I have had a very bad day and this is a rant post about the many shortcomings of the TTC. First of all, I'd like to explain what happened today and why I am so upset.Me and my other half were riding the subway from the Sheppard station to the Don Mills station. We sometimes decide that we have extra time and do not need to get off of the subway and walk in the rain and we can ride it again since we are sleep deprived high school students. Today, however, once we had decided to ride it again, when we reached Sheppard station (once again), the TTC conductor very rudely announced to us that it was the last stop. In thinking he was being kind to remind us that we had reached our destination, thinking that we had fallen asleep, I replied nicely that we would be in fact riding it back. He then proceeded to say in a very rude tone again that this was the last stop and shot us a menacing glance.
Let me say there are many things wrong with this scenario. I am a TTC customer , I have paid the required fare to be able to ride the TTC. Let me repeat. I HAVE PAID. This means that the TTC services are at my disposal for as long as I don't exit the station or cause disruption to other customers or TTC employees. Therefore there should be nothing wrong with riding the subway more than once. I have done it more times than I can count on one hand, and no one has had a problem with it and has never told me to get off of the subway. Therefore I was rather shocked at today's incident as:
1.We were not causing any kind of trouble and we were not being rude or disrespectful in any way. My boyfriend was sleeping on my shoulder and I was holding his hand. We were not being noisy or disruptive, and we were in no way bothering any other passenger on the subway.
2.The subway was rather empty, and there were a lot of available seats. If this was a seat problem, we would have gladly relinquished our seats to the other patrons. However, seeing as there were many more available seats, this was clearly not the issue.
3.I have done my research, both on the official TTC website and on the internet and have not found anything to say that riding the subway more than once is in any way not permitted.
I have found that in the TTC by law act, it states
4. Both me and my boyfriend are for one patrons of the TTC and we have paid the necessary fare. This is really mind boggling. If one goes to Wonderland, and pays for a ticket, there is no reason why people cannot ride the rides more than once. If it is an empty day at Wonderland, and you are on a ride and there is no line up, why can you not ride again??
5. The fact that the TTC conductor was so rude is also an issue. When he stated that it was the last stop, I replied to him in a kind manner, I did not reply to him in an unfriendly or rude manner. Is it not correct that I should expect the same courtesy from him, an employee of one of the essential services of Toronto? Is it wrong to expect such understanding and kindness from people? It would have been understandable had I been mean or disrespectful to him for him to reply to me in such a manner. However, this was not the case.
Don't get me wrong, I actually like TTC drivers. There are some that greet me daily, and some that make riding the TTC a very enjoyable experience. This however, is ridiculous. I know my rights, and since there is nothing clearly stating the riding the subway back and forth is restricted ( there should be signs and the public should be told), there should have been no altercation.
The only reason that me and my boyfriend complied, ( we obviously got on the subway again, just in a different car, because come on people, that is clearly stupid and we are not going to wait), is because we did not want to cause a scene, to delay the subway for other passengers, and because in fact, if we had argued, we had no proof in order to back up our statements.Be kind to people you meet, because you never know their situation. However, when you have not done anything wrong and are being treated unfairly, especially by someone that is supposed to be kind and courteous, to you, don't stand for it. I'm not saying people don't have bad days, and I'm not saying that people don't make mistakes, however,being angry, upset or grumpy is no reason to take it out on any other human being.
Let me say there are many things wrong with this scenario. I am a TTC customer , I have paid the required fare to be able to ride the TTC. Let me repeat. I HAVE PAID. This means that the TTC services are at my disposal for as long as I don't exit the station or cause disruption to other customers or TTC employees. Therefore there should be nothing wrong with riding the subway more than once. I have done it more times than I can count on one hand, and no one has had a problem with it and has never told me to get off of the subway. Therefore I was rather shocked at today's incident as:
1.We were not causing any kind of trouble and we were not being rude or disrespectful in any way. My boyfriend was sleeping on my shoulder and I was holding his hand. We were not being noisy or disruptive, and we were in no way bothering any other passenger on the subway.
2.The subway was rather empty, and there were a lot of available seats. If this was a seat problem, we would have gladly relinquished our seats to the other patrons. However, seeing as there were many more available seats, this was clearly not the issue.
3.I have done my research, both on the official TTC website and on the internet and have not found anything to say that riding the subway more than once is in any way not permitted.
I have found that in the TTC by law act, it states
"i) “loiter” means to linger without due cause and includes but is not limited to:(i) idly spending time in or on TTC property without the express purpose of using the transit system;"This however is very vague. We had an express purpose of using the transit system, we had a destination to go to. We are also not the only passengers that remain on the TTC after it has come to a stop. I think this is silly. If you paid for it, you should be able to ride it over and over again if you are not, of course disturbing anyone else. We were not loitering in the station.There is no reason why this subway driver should have kicked us out. If it is not permitted, there should be a kind of sign in the actual subway or in the station telling riders this. It is ridiculous that TTC drivers believe that because they press a few coloured buttons they can act rude to customers. Even if the driver had been correct, he should have been more courteous.. There are of course times when it is necessary that they take matters into their own hands, this was however, not one of those times.
4. Both me and my boyfriend are for one patrons of the TTC and we have paid the necessary fare. This is really mind boggling. If one goes to Wonderland, and pays for a ticket, there is no reason why people cannot ride the rides more than once. If it is an empty day at Wonderland, and you are on a ride and there is no line up, why can you not ride again??
5. The fact that the TTC conductor was so rude is also an issue. When he stated that it was the last stop, I replied to him in a kind manner, I did not reply to him in an unfriendly or rude manner. Is it not correct that I should expect the same courtesy from him, an employee of one of the essential services of Toronto? Is it wrong to expect such understanding and kindness from people? It would have been understandable had I been mean or disrespectful to him for him to reply to me in such a manner. However, this was not the case.
Don't get me wrong, I actually like TTC drivers. There are some that greet me daily, and some that make riding the TTC a very enjoyable experience. This however, is ridiculous. I know my rights, and since there is nothing clearly stating the riding the subway back and forth is restricted ( there should be signs and the public should be told), there should have been no altercation.
The only reason that me and my boyfriend complied, ( we obviously got on the subway again, just in a different car, because come on people, that is clearly stupid and we are not going to wait), is because we did not want to cause a scene, to delay the subway for other passengers, and because in fact, if we had argued, we had no proof in order to back up our statements.Be kind to people you meet, because you never know their situation. However, when you have not done anything wrong and are being treated unfairly, especially by someone that is supposed to be kind and courteous, to you, don't stand for it. I'm not saying people don't have bad days, and I'm not saying that people don't make mistakes, however,being angry, upset or grumpy is no reason to take it out on any other human being.
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