Stress

You don't need to do everything at once. It is okay to take it easy. Dont take your frustration out on other people. Do not  hurt the people you love the most.

Reminders for myself because I seem to be forgetting.

Long time no see.

Well.. I haven't blogged in ages. And so many things have happened since then. Both bad and good!

Right now though I am in a really good and happy place in my life. There was a time where everything was going wrong but now that is all over and Im exactly where I want to be.

Today I had an amazing day with my boyfriend. We watched a movie and ate pancakes and spaghetti. I love our date nights so much. I enjoy going out a lot but somedays I really do think snuggling up on the couch with the man I love and watching (or semi watching in my case because he is so comfortable I end up falling asleep in his arms) a really good movie is better than going out.

Im really happy that I can spend a lot of my weekends like this. Every time we have to part ways it makes me wish he lived so much closer to me..

Maybe this year I can afford to move out once I can get a job after exams. If I move out it would be lovely to get a place near both school and my man. It would be great to be able to have my own living space.

Ahhh of only it wasnt so expensive to live alone );

Sometimes things make me so sad I wish I could burrow deep into my blankets and not have to face reality for a while.

This was my lunch today! (: I also cleaned my room today so I wasn't being completely useless! I also plan to do homework today..later..

I can't do homework during the day, I'm not even sure why...

04/10/2013

Today I failed another math test.. despite being confident in knowing how to do the work my mind went completely blank. I felt really stupid today)':

I don't think my future career will be math related at all..

Im setting a goal of doing all my homework from now on! And losing 10kg by prom by limiting my sugar and carbohydrate intake..

/I'll do it this time!/

I'd like to do a draw my life video! :3
I still haven't decided between a note or a Mac..

I'm bad with decision-making. I hope this month I'll be a more decisive person!:)

07/04/13

Today I learned how to drive! Kind of! I'm slowly getting there.. I'm terrified since I am so bad with multitasking. You have to check your mirrors, and back up, press the pedals etc.. Ah, I hope I'm secretly an amazing driver! (maybe I am!).

Me and my mom made burgers for dinner, and all in all I had an okay day! 

15.03.2013

Just realized that most of the dates on this blog are wrong because my laptop date is ahead by one whole day..

Anyways! Yesterday was Justin's birthday! Happy 17th birthday to you my love! (Although I failed with the grammar in your card, I fixed it here, see?) I love you so much! I had such a great time on your birthday, so I hope you did too!

I'd love to go out today, but my father is being lazy and just watching documentaries on the computer and sleeping... I think I'll go hand out my resume at a few places once I shower, but I am legitimately very lazy to go out at this point.. I can't be mad at my dad because he looks so harmless when he sleeps.. plus he gave me twenty dollars for no apparent reason!

Yay! I have some money in my wallet! I'm not broke anymooore! Although he got upset because I wanted to use it to buy some things.. he's always lecturing me about saving money.. I used to be pretty good with saving money!

Okay! I won't spend this $20 unless absolutely necessary! I should at least have some money with me right, right hehehe. Probably won't last very long, I am very bad with saving money. There is always a time when something needs to be bough!

I should work a little because school is starting soon.. but why is this march break so short! It always feels like a day, I swear!~

Isn't this dress so gorgeous? It's some rip off of a DVF dress.. but the colour is actually so pretty! Like.. a deep plum colour.

I want to be able to look nice in dresses too.. especially don't want to look like an overstuffed sausage anymore!! I have to watch what I eat! March break has been a horrible food week, so much unhealthy food.. mostly junk. Except for baby's dinner last night and lunch yesterday (sushi and tempura! Real food for the first time in daaaayyss! Been living off of chocolate croissants and other miscellaneous items found in cupboard).

Ahhhhhhh.. eat well..eat well!
I was doing really well.. and then it went downhill again (that kind of rhymes)..
So let's do better from now on!!!!~

List of things I must accomplish

1.Lose weight (has been a goal since like what, 2006...)
2. Get a job! (stop being so lazy!)
3. Do more homework (do it early ;A:)

I also want to spend as much time with my love before I leave for vacation! I want to spend lots of time together~!

Flashback picture! Family shot hehe. My Birthday last year. also the eyeliner marks on my hands from teaching baby how to use it. What a cute bunch we are (:

Looks like he's in pain but! Despite it being a tiara, he's my prince! I hope you felt like royalty on your birthday! Thank you lots for taking this picture for me <3 !

08.03.2012

My lover got sick and couldn't come to school because he had to see the doctor. He slept for fourteen hours after a whole day of hives and red bumps appeared all over his body making it impossible for him to sleep- especially since they were itching really badly.

The doctor also said he might have strep throat... which makes it even worse. His allergy hasn't acted up anymore but now it hurts to eat and swallow..

I brought him some soup, some tea and hot chocolate to try and calm the infection in his throat. I also brought him a warm blankie which I use! It feels like sleeping on ten fuzzy puppies at the same time!

I hope you get better soon Justin! Rest up and eat lots to make sure you get your strength back!

At school today, I got to open a time capsule! While it wasn't super old, it was great to see what the first people in my school were like. I also want to make a time capsule. I want to make a time capsule with Justin!

I wonder what I would bury?...mm

A picture of us two! Ahhh I'd like to make one now! I want to come back with him after a year or two and dig it up! We could each write a letter and tell each other we can't read it until one year later!

I'm currently really liking "Dream Girl" by SHINee! It's such a catchy song! I don't know what they did with Taemin though, but I don't mind! So catchy~! And guess what? They gave Minho more than one line in the song! woohoo!

He's like Bora in SISTAR19.. Hyorin basically sings 70% of the song herself. Not that I'm complaining because Hyorin has a nice voice but, mmm...

I got a Japanese speaking CD-rom from the library- and it's horrible. I don't mean the quality, it's fine for the purpose it is meant to serve, but the CD-rom keeps having errors and shutting down... ahh I guess my expectations were too high for it..


In other news, It's almost baby's birthday! Yay! I'm still debating on his present.. should I get B or B and should I get the C or the V...mmm... or maybe the other C...

I want to eat a pistachio macaron! D:

Mmm, I had a really good Macaron at this bakery I went to with my parents, uhhhh it was soooo goood. They had different flavors too mmm, delicious! I really like desserts!

I have a test tomorrow..- because I did horrible on the multiple choice I have to get 20/20 on short answer and also do one extra question to hope to get bonus five marks to kind of balance my test out...


I'm going to go read a book before I sleep! Baby needs his rest too so we are sleeping early today~!

02.03.2013

Today was a good day! There was a bake sale at school, so baby bought me a cupcake. He bought one too.. but his wasn't so delicious, he didn't even finish it! It's hit or miss with these things isn't it..

Mrs.D still hasn't uploaded the powerpoint for the lecture we had in class two classes ago despite me reminding her three times! I want to do your work, really! I want to do well in your class- except you're not letting me!! Really, I feel stupid since I asked again but I'd like to get it done with and I can't...

In other news, baby and I went to the Eaton Centre! We ate at Eki Bento where the lady serving us messed up our order and then charged us full price despite us ordering the daily special. (It's only one dollar more but.. that's still money). After we ate, we were so full so we lounged around the place for a bit until we headed back to Eatons.

I tried my first Mrs.Fields cookie! We bought half a dozen, five macadamia/white chocolate and one milk chocolate. Although the macadamia ones were delicious, the milk chocolate one reminded me of a cookie straight out of the oven! (I like my cookies hot and gooey, which is why I dislike buying cafeteria cookies unless it's in the morning, because they are harder than bricks and depending on who made them that morning, they may be burnt- one caf lady does not know how to make them.. I don't know which one though..)

Although I don't even want to post what I ate, I'll do it anyways because hey, it's a good reminder.

Oatmeal
Mango
Toasted Seaweed
Vegetable Chips
Chicken
1/4 Curry Chicken Kaarage Bowl
3/4 Beef Bowl
4 Mrs.Fields cookies (1 milk chocolate, 3 macadamia white chocolate)
Nestea (this counts because soft drinks also have calories, why I usually prefer water, since I like to eat my calories not really drink them, I feel much more satisfied like that! (: )
3 Cucumber Roll pieces
1 Cupcake


So yup! Not the best day in terms of diet but, It was a date and I don't like to restrict myself when I'm going out. I had fun too so I don't regret eating so much ! Plus everything I ate today was super yummy! Thank you for treating me today baby! It was so fun and delicious!

So proud of my man, he's going to make his resume and apply for a job! (: Although I don't look forward to him working really hard, I hate to see him so stressed out so... maybe this is the answer to that? Maybe not though. You never know until you try. I just hate seeing him stressed and frustrated because of my wants, he shouldn't have to put himself through that just to please me. I'm happy if he's happy.

What's going on this week?
Math Test Monday! (Ugh.. I have 5.4 done.. but not 5.1-5.3 and 5.5 so... let's hope I do well.. I also don't have the review done ..)
English 1984 Test! (Why are we having a test for english again? I think this is kind of dumb but oh well..)

Homework!
Animation (make phone spin! make it spppiinnnnn)
French (3 pages livre + 2 pages cahier)
Religion (summarize article + paragraph on relationships)
Writer's Craft (screen play+ Just a lather, that's all analysis)
Philosophy- (bonus marks package + quiz friday)
Economics (Notes+questions)

Okayyy! Time to read and summarize! Here we go~!

Todays food journal
Oatmeal
Mango
Mango
2 Hot Stuffs
3-4 Slices Pizza
Chicken
1/2 Bueno
1/2 Sour Key

Ahh I did so bad today. For some reason I was so hungry today it was crazy! Hehe. Its okay though
I don't feel hungry now :) as long as I feel full its okay to eat more!

Mmm I really want a pistachio macaron.. so good.

Anyways, I did well on my math and English tests today! It snowed a whole lot too.. it was nice outside until it turned into slush. Even though I was wearing rainboots my feet still got wet.

Today was unproductive.. I slept and ate a lot, although I have a french speech tomorrow. Please memorize fast brain!

I was so happy to see baby today! Yay! Tomorrow is even better:3 lunch and class also with baby! Let's work hard tomorrow... I hope!

28.02.2013

I didn't go to school today! It ended up snowing lots and my dad couldn't even go to work because the snow was blocking out driveway and his car couldn't exit ...

So instead, I stayed home and studied for english.. I still have to study for math. Do not want to because it is a bonus test but.. I am sure this test will not be good so it is good to have at least some bonus marks! Today my eating was so-so, I ate too many greasy things so I'm not too happy with myself but.. I will do better tomorrow! I also ate chocolate again! But only 2 squares so it is not too bad...

Vegetable Chips
Mango
2 Egg Rolls + soy sauce
2 Squares of chocolate
Toasted Seaweed
Soup
Mango

Too little vegetables, but the soup is mostly vegetables so.. It is okay. I must give my dad the vegetables chips to eat.. although healthier than regular chips.. they are still chips! In addition to my math, I also have to finish writer's craft and economics!

My economics teacher is okay.. I got 82% on my test.. I wish I had done notes! 3 marks bonus for notes!!!! I could have gotten 36/40 with the bonus.. Next time have to do notes for sure!!!!

Today I woke up wanting to have pizza.. but since I already ate chips, pizza will have to wait some days because it is too greasy to eat after having chips.. plus Egg Roll is a bit greasy too, although it has vegetables inside..

雪が降っています～！きれいですね～けど。。いっぱい雪です！～だから学校栄着ません。明日は２テストがあります。。やばい～テストが難しい。。どうしよう。。あたしは勉強しません。「がんばって！」といったけど。。ぜんぜんわからない。神様お願い！助けて！日本語のブログを買いたい。。私の日本語は悪いですね。。すみませんみんな～みんなわかった？



I was thinking maybe to write a Japanese journal to improve because I am forgetting a lot now.. so maybe when I have time I can write in Japanese here a bit!

I am going to go have my soup now since it is almost 6PM and eating after 6PM is a not good ;A;

I haven`t posted something in a while, huh...
I actually miss having some kind of journal to write in. My days typically aren`t very exciting- but I`d like to think my opinions might be.

I`m working on my english homework right now. I especially dislike poetry in english for some reason or other.. I can`t seem to be happy with my assignment. I`m listening to 二人の気持ち from the Inuyasha OST, and it's so calming..

I didn't do much today. Although I feel less heavier, I'm not actually sure if I'm losing any weight. Anyways, here is what I ate today!

Oatmeal with 1 square of chocolate
Rice with beef and mushrooms
2 squares of chocolate
1 mango
Strawberries
2 more squares of chocolate

I heard having a light dinner is better since your body needs time to digest the food you eat, so I've been trying to have a heavier lunch/breakfast rather than dinner. I noticed that I usually get hungry between 12:00pm-4:00pm and after that I don't feel hungry, so eating heavier meals during that time will help me from overeating.

Not to mention eating a lot of protein makes you full, so in general meats and eggs are really good.. except I don't particularly like eggs. Unless you add something yummy to it like bacon or cheese or something.

Yesterday~

Yesterday I was supposed to go to a friend's birthday party, however it was rather late and short notice so I couldn't attend.. Instead I suggested her coming over on Sunday to make up for it, unfortunately that didn't happen because she had to say goodbye to her brother.

I went to a really yummy restaurant with Justin yesterday though! The food is really good- the service? Not so much... Nakwon's food is delicious, (minus the teriyaki set Justin had one time which was burn and tasted like coal..). However the ladies working there have the death stare! 

It's so intimidating to ask for anything, they aren't exactly welcoming. Not to mention they collect their tip and don't ask if you want change.. which I think is a bit rude, because I was going to give them the tip anyways, but most places ask you if you'd like your change back. 

So, service wise, 2/10. Food wise, depending on what you get, 8/10. The food is actually pretty good, portions are big, and if you can't finish it, they give you takeout boxes! 

They also have a television playing some Korean channel, which, (weirdly enough, on the day we went) had accompanying Spanish subtitles...??

I found a lot of the customers to be chinese- even the ladies running the restaurant spoke both Korean and Chinese!

It gets rather loud sometimes, but I had a great time with Justin there!

After eating spicy rice cakes, which are sold out of a kind of food-stall, and taiyaki also from the same stall, we went into the little centre to eat (there was so much snow outside and it was cold), and we sat by the fountain and talked.

Next we went to a cute cafe called Soban, which besides having a really cute interior, has a really nice view if you come later on at night (7:00pm-9:00pm or later). We had the Taro Cookie Slush (mmmmmm!) and we ordered one of their waffles, which came with strawberries, kiwis, chocolate sauce and vanilla and chocolate icecream all dusted with powdered sugar.

It was so delicious! Too bad the waffle and drink were so huge I couldn't eat lots because of all that we ate beforehand! 

The service here was really nice! The person that served us was a very nice Korean girl who even helped us by telling us what the yuumiest things on the menu were, so, service here gets an 8/10, the food also gets an 8/10! 

I feel like I ate so much that day, but it was so delicious! Thank you for taking me out baby!~<3

Know how much I love you beautiful girl
Like a picture of a child to me
And frozen before a shadow
There’s nothing I can do
With a shaky voice
With dry lips
(Come a step closer to me and tenderly whisper)
The surrounding firelight dances
I always dream of you

Baby good night
Baby good night
Baby good night
Baby good night

One of the best days ever! Seeing someone you love after an absence is the best feeling ever, just being able to be beside them and hold them once again ahhh! I also love all of my classes for day one. I love the teachers, and I think it's going to be fun but educative, which I appreciate.

I love how we're writing journals for Writers Craft! We can talk about anything, and that makes me happy because I can truly write my best when I'm writing about a subject or a topic that interests me and I want to be able to tell the story to the reader in a way that they are able to feel some kind of emotion or be moved by my writing.

Period three looks like a joke, it's Philosophy, but only because the class is a weird mix of kids that don't care about anything and do drugs and don't study (not saying they're bad people, they just make their own choices, which are bad), and small groups of kids that are in AP and try really hard at everything..

We will see how it'll turn out.

Period four is actually really fun, It might be the professor's voice but he sounds absolutely gay and fabulous and just makes jokes all the time and everything. I'm glad I'm sitting next to some very nice people this year!

Although I don't quite like one girl sitting behind me in period three, I'll try to be as open minded as possible, maybe she's just a really nice girl, right?

As for my diet, today I thought to myself, wow I didn't eat much.. I should eat more.
Then I looked back and realized I ate quite a bit.

Morning:
Toast and Oatmeal

Lunch: A cream cheese sandwich, some pretzels, a pastry crisp

Dinner: Rice with beef and pork, cucumbers, Tim Horton's Iced Capp, pretzels and watermelon.

Maybe It's just me but somehow I feel really full after all of that....


I didn't drink enough water today though.. I barely got through 500ml of water, usually I drink up to 2L...

Oh well, will improve tomorrow! Tomorrow's goal is to replace the toast at breakfast with watermelon, because bread isn't that good for you. Oh and drink more water!


Baby said I lost weight. I feel really accomplished! I'm not hungry and I eat when I do get hungry, I just try to eat things that are filling and healthy and I try not to eat junk foods!(:

This song, this song... The new YG trainee is so pretty! Jennie Kim is her name, and I love her hair...wah. She's part of a new group YG's planning to put out and I'm excited.. she did a rap video that reminded me of CL.

Every single song GD comes out with I can't stop listening to, no matter how long it's been! (:

Passing through downtown Toronto reminds me I live in a beautiful city. They have these ferris wheels down by the CN tower that light up at night. I want to go on one late at night in winter while its snowing.

Today is just one of those days where I realize how large the world is. I'm always thinking too much.

Taking a warm bath when I get home. Just soaking for hours, because I can. Hope everyone is having an amazing day! I'm finally home.

I am beyond happy right now, a little message can make me soo happy!! Ahh, baby thank you for texting me. I was really worried about you, the only regret I have is not being home to respond since we went to the beach again today. I got a semi-tan. It's not that big of a tan, but my mom turned really brown.

I feel so at ease now.I feel so peaceful and just my worries have flown away and I'm on cloud 9. No, cloud 10. Because 10 is better than 9. Because it is.

You know that feeling when you're so happy and you just want to squeeze that person so hard and just stay there forever holding them and crying tears of joy? That's me right now. But maybe not crying yet, I need to see baby first, I'm only allowed to cry on him.

You know when you've found that person you want to spend forever with and you're really happy and everything makes you laugh and you want to do everything for that person? That's also me right now. I've said this a lot before, but I want to marry him.

I know, I know, I'm seventeen blah blah. I want to marry him and it's final and that's it and we will get married and have a lot of children and we will be a really cute family! No matter what happens, we will be super cute together forever always! (I sounded really blonde there..but it's true!). This love I have for him is just, bigger than anything!

He makes me happier than anyone. He makes me work hard and smile and laugh and I love him so much. That's my man. So hands off everybody, okay? Because if you fall in love with him, you can't have him because he's mine and loves only me so tough luck!~


I really need to complain to WestGate though their WiFi is really weird. If I'm in the living room it's works beautifully and when I'm in my room it disconnects like there is no tomorrow! I wish there was free WiFi everywhere! In the subways, in the streets, in cars, in buses, on the beach everywhere!

It's pretty late and I'm still not sleeping, because my phone decided it would connect to the WiFi and I saw baby's message and I was jumping up and down and sitting in the bathroom smiling at my phone like an idiot because I love this man so much and can't wait to see him!

I've been sleeping with his sweater on everyday(: Wearing his necklace, and the bear he gave me and staring at pictures of him on my phone <3 Being apart from him is really hard.. but when I have fun, the day goes by quickly and I'll be able to see him sooner! Our time here ends on the 31st and my parents want to go to another hotel and another beach.. I'm not too thrilled about it, but we are going to the beach again tomorrow..

I can't wait to see you again.
I love you more than anything <3

Missing my boyfriend so much.. writing this while wearing his sweater and cuddling the bear he gave me. I haven't spoken to him in two whole days, and I'm worried about him and I miss him like crazy. I'm hoping time goes by a little quick so that I can see him soon and ask about his trip.

To pass time, I've been shopping and watching dramas, or should I say rewatching. I still find the Japanese hana kimi better than the Korean for some reason. It just makes me laugh and bawl and just so many emotions haha.

It's been helping with my loneliness, but I still miss him so much. Missing someone is just not a good feeling at all.. It makes you lonely, but at the same time, it makes seeing that person again exciting,, because you're anticipating it and can't wait and want to run and jump and just hug the other person to death. (Okay, that's an expression, don't make anyone die..).


I've been taking out my phone just to stare at the background and go through my picture gallery. We've come so far. It's like my life was a puzzle and it was missing a piece and he just completes me like no one can or ever will be able to.

When I'm with him, he makes me feel like the only woman in the world.

He makes me laugh and be silly and he makes me appreciate every little thing(:

Ahhhh, It makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside when I talk about my "taisetsuna hito". It's pretty late, but I can't seem to fall asleep. Although sleeping is nice. I really enjoy sleep. Anything can happen in dreams.

I can see my baby in my dreams. I can marry him and force him to buy a rabbit or a dog. I can fly or I can become an animal or just, dreams are amazing, sometimes scary and sometimes weird. But dreaming of him makes me feel really happy. Although I can't see him yet, Although I can't speak to him today, I know somewhere, he's thinking and dreaming of me too.

And, you know, he's looking up at the same sky as I am.
It's a comforting feeling, somehow~

I'm suuper late on this because I've been lazy but I am so obsessed with GD's new song, One of a Kind. I really like G-Dragon, I think right after Gee the second Korean song I heard was his "Heartbreaker". I like how you can pick out his voice on any track it's so unique.

Rosana drew me a picture of him for my 16th birthday... I was super obsessed with Heartbreaker and I wouldn't shut up, I think I memorized the lyrics...

Here you are (: !~ Yessssiir I'm one of a kiiiinnddddd

To The Beautiful You vs Hana Kimi

So, I've recently started watching the korean version of Hana Kimi, and let me tell you, it's quite different from the original. Remeber in Hana Kimi when Mizuki is running the marathon, she gets injured by someone stepping on her foot with cleats and her foot starts bleeding, but she runs anyways? Well, in Hana Kimi, Mizuki doesn't win the race and Sano rushes in to carry her to the doctor's office, Nakatsu helps too. Not to mention there's a whole backstory with his grandma being ill.

In To The Beautiful You, Sulli ( already forgot her character's name, uhh...) actually wins the race, and she doesn't injure her foot in the same way (she sprains it). Also, in TTBY I don't see Dorm 3 being as funny. Dorm 3, Oscaaaar!

Is it funny that in both dramas I wanted the lead to end up with Nakatsu/Lee Hyunwoo?? Sorry Minho.. but.. I just don't like your role. I didn't like Oguri Shun's role either.. I just don't like the whole Sano-type. Another big difference is that, in the Japanese version, Mizuki's brother is played by a japanese actor who speaks his lines in japanese.. where as Sulli's brother.. is some tall American guy?!

I found it totally unrealistic when he speaks in English ( and korean subs appear ) and Sulli answers in Korean. It's a little weird to talk like that to your brother.. is she adopted or half american??? She did say some English lines but... so...korean...accent. One thing that did surprise me is that the American guy did speak Korean! He said quite a few lines. But his acting was just...oh gosh... so false.

Another thing, when Sulli got kidnapped by that hyung and Minho went to save her.. they were in a van (a rapist van, Sulli, it looked like a rapist van! And hyung kept touching you too! RAPE ALERT!) and Minho runs out of the house and he's like (his thought)

Let me just take a bicycle and catch up to a motorized vehicle and let me not think to call hyung's cellphone but have Sulli call me and tell me details of where she is and I'll know exactly where that is even though I don't live in this area. Sounds good Minho. Go.

My favorite character so far is Eun Gyeol! He's just super happy and funny and I can't deal with Minho's bad personality and gloom. Not to mention that Korea's sweetheart girl that thinks she's Minho's girlfriend that I swear will end up with Eun Gyeol although he liked Sulli and thinks he's gay.


I swear if Eun Gyeol ends up with miss bratty I will call the produced and tell them SHIBAL KEZEKI YA. No, No, No. Cannot.

I must admit though, the Korean actors are much better dressed compared to Hana Kimi's cast (I really really dislike their uniforms in Hana Kimi...). But I'm not too sure about Sulli's acting either. I just have an f(x) bias and like Sulli because she's cuter than a button.

Best scenes: Eun Gyeol imagining him and Sulli getting married, having a child and the child asking which daddy gave birth to him.

Worst Acting: "Oppa" finds out Sulli is pretending to be a guy at an all male school and gives her a long lecture about her future in english.

Look at that fancy bowl cut! xD It suits him though. I can't imagine Minho with that bowl cut..

An obligatory gif of Sulli and Eun Gyeol. Because he reminds me of GD. They're so adorable together!

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